Cheerful..!

2011-06-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

abandon this, moving to live journal where no one knows.

travel

2011-05-25T00:25:00.001+08:00

the 3rd pp to volunteer sponsor part of e cost to a trip.

2011-03-14T13:42:00.001+08:00

I never know I could actually cause so much hurt to people.

question

2011-03-05T03:31:00.001+08:00

e question have been posted again... and I just kept quiet.

vday pressie from zun

2011-02-13T21:12:00.005+08:00

received vday pressie from zun. it's his thoughts that i felt he put a lot of effort in it.

one of the things he wrote.

mummy

很多事我都开不了口让你知道，像有一次打pool, 你被gian long 讲，迟到被gian long 骂，但每次你都不在乎，还能跟他很好，但我却很不开心，这些应该是你不知道的事。可能，in your eyes, 我并不值得你留意吧。我就在心里说，没关系终有一天，哪怕只是一点点的注意到我，我都会很开心。

31st Jan ~ 2nd Feb, 虽然是短短的三天，但心情的起伏却很大。一开始就想在这三天把你宠坏，让你开开心心去Malaysia 想在那三天内，能不能成为mummy 的生理时钟。就算mummy 也有可能只把我当男佣来使唤而身边可能也有了别人。我也不会complain, 因为一开始，我是你“儿子”阿。但只要是我能给的，我一定会做给mummy 的。

虽然我没有gian long 壮，也没gian long 好看，但我绝对不会像gian long 为了小事就骂你，希望会有那么一天儿子能成为mummy 的专属天使， 把你藏起来!!!

but he's still being rejected 3 times straight today... just dont wish to go into a relationship this fast yet.

it wont be easy. if it's that easy, then i would have been attached a long time ago..........

a feeling

2011-01-31T13:30:00.002+08:00

i suddenly have this feeling that soon, i'll be saying my bf buy for me de instead of saying my fren buy for me.

but, i just dont want things to go so fast. for a least, a few months ltr.

just dont want to end up having another wen xiu's kind or like my father's kind as a bf.

骗

2011-01-27T22:30:00.003+08:00

ruoning say 我要被他骗到了.
but I don't think there's any news coming.

I'm someone who likes 新鲜感. once e novelty period is gone, I wonder will I still be able to commit myself into it.

sometimes I wonder to myself. how do these couples out there can last so long.? there will be a time when u will run out of topics to communicate. there will be a time when u have already did everything together, and what's left for u to do so that it will remain as interesting as previous.

and when u are married, how do u maintain and hold this relationship?

till now, it's still e 'honeymoon' period. he's doing everything he can now to make me happy even though we are not even together. months ltr, will I be sian of it? months ltr, will I realize I have been too pampered by him and asking for more. months ltr, will I then realize that actually I don't like him but only enjoy being 捧在手心里的感觉. or maybe months ltr will I then realize 原来我只是那时无聊, 找他解闷而不小心触动了他的心.

希望现在的他别附出太多的心.不想以后因我而不小心伤害了他. 以后的事，很难说.

now, I only want to have fun and 还在摸索我的 wants, 我自己. this period now is my busy period, and also is my most vulnerable period.

他很好. 真的.

2011 resolution

2010-12-31T13:51:00.001+08:00

new year new resolutions, I'm writing this in bus on e way home aft work however.

1. Don't want to fail any modules for the year.!
2. Get rid at least half of the strong emoness I have in me this year, 2010.
3. Stop pretending to be strong when I'm actually not. Meaning I'll start having my options open.
4. Start saving!
5. Get to enjoy myself as and whenever I can!

improved

2010-12-18T21:30:00.001+08:00

after 2 weeks nv run, ran 10k and improved by 16s.

1h 03min 10 sec

sensitive

2010-12-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

lawrence this name is getting sensitive to me.

someone named Lawrence is sitting beside me now for WITs course. 2 days.

scary dream

2010-12-12T12:54:00.001+08:00

I dreamt that I nearly married to my colleague cum ex-classmate, cum sch mate now. he's married and we are quite close at work.

thankfully, I don't like him. haha

1 dec

2010-11-29T21:48:00.001+08:00

1 dec, I just want to spend it alone.

till I found that one, shall spend it alone.

lost count

2010-11-22T23:28:00.001+08:00

seriously, I lost count of how many times have I rejected him.

10k run timings!!!

2010-10-31T16:01:00.001+08:00

Nike City 10k run 1"04"11
Great Eastern Women 10k run 1"03"26

a dream that i feel like running away

2010-08-10T12:34:00.002+08:00

had this dream where my family and all actually gang up with Kevin to help him!!!!

i think it's because that last episode of channel 8 show on sun 1630 while i was doing my foot massage. e part i watched was Joanna Peh's family gang up with this guy to help him win her heart.

my dream was a mixture of my current condition now and that show. it was like a part 2. i dont have any of that part one dream but this was how it continues...

i was sick at home, and kevin came to visit. when i woke up, he showed mi some things. and wanted my ans. i was like huh what things? then i knew he wanted to give mi the last time he came when my parents helped him but didnt. i read the card and was actually touched. it was a card of his expressions to mi. he wrote every little things that i thot he had forgotten that even i had forgot too. the dates that we meet, my happiness and unhappiness and all. i was touched by the card. but i just really treat him as a fren now. i dont know how to reject him and just want to run away....

he kept asking mi for the ans and everyone around was like asking him how how, succeed???? i was like i'm sick now, let mi go see doc first then say.

07.08.2010 - 09.08.2010 Batam trip with YI MIN & TING YIN & Izzatd

2010-08-10T11:21:00.003+08:00

TING YIN picked mi up and drove to her house waiting for her dad to drive us to tanah merah ferry terminal. her house was huge. haha

YI MIN had e wrong time for boarding of ferry. we were all early. she dont know how to see 24h time.

waited and waited, finally board the ferry. trip was fast. on e way, could catch a glismp of fireworks for the yog.

reached, the time there was one hour slower than singapore time. and because of this, we had a few funny incidents occured.

we got nothing to do most of the time. walk here and there only. i kept saying hungry.... finally ate my dinner at batam time 2200. we ate, and went up to slp le, saying tmr wake up at 0700 and we are like 0700 which time.!??? as TING YIN and I changed $100 of rupiahs each, we dont know what to do with the monies as they accepts Sing dollars there. so we ask if we could pay in rupiahs and they converted for us. i tell u, paying them in rupiahs is a challenge for us.. there are just too many zeros to make up what is that note. there are 100000, 50000, 20000, 10000, 5000, 2000, 1000 notes. we were like counting how many zeros are there. the bill was 396000 TING YIN took out a 100000 note, and the waiter say not enough. it took us some time to figure it out and i took another 3 100000 notes out to pay. the meal was $60.

TING YIN and I one room, YI MIN in the other room. Izzatd was suppose to share with her but he will only come on the 2nd night so it was a 3 ladies holiday for half the trip.

the next morning, YI MIN knock on our door and wake us up. all of us were surprised. YI MIN was surprised we were still slping. TING YIN and I were surprised that we actually overslept when we set alarm in my phone! truth is, my phone auto changed to batam time without mi realising so TING YIN and I thought we were still early when she went toilet at my phone's 0711 so we went back to slp.

wash up and all, we went for our free breakfast and I ate all the diff variety haha. I had a very heavy breakfast. breakfast was good. went back changed, we were good to start our day but luck spoils it all. we could not snorkle, could not play jet skit, could not had 3h spa and almost could not play banana boat. tide too high for snorkling, jet skit spoil left one only, spa fully booked. banana boat has a leak so we set off with a fully inflated boat and back with a soft boat. sea was quite calm so our banana boat ride was quite stable. for the whole day's activities, we just say charge to the room. haha.

nothing to do next, 3 of us kayak lor. but we could not go far so we were like kayaking here and there with the premise only. our self entertainment was switching kayaks ourselves in the water.

went swimming. mostly we are just dipping in the pool only.

couldnt had spa, we just went for sauna. first time in there, it was really damn humid and limited air. all this sudden hot cold hot cold change, i think i became sick now because of the changes.

went back bath and changed, we gt nothing to do so we hired a cab out to the town and shopped. we hire for 4h and went 2 shopping malls as usual, charge to the room. managed to had foot massage afterall but we went one hour later cause when we reached, it was fully booked. it was damn oily haha. 80000 rupiahs. we didnt had any lunch for the day.

oh, the 3 of us bought the same hugo boss perfume. it was damn cheap.! 40000 rupiahs, it's like $6+ only..

went back, had kelong seafood as dinner. just like our luck we had, there are no more live or fresh fishes.. we just had crabs, baby kailan, green curry chicken and gong gong instead. Izzatd finally reached when we were finishing. went up, settled down a bit and we watched SALT. Bought that at the mall for 10000 rupiahs. it's like $1+ haha damn cheap. our plan was watched and discard since we cant bring back and it was cheap anyway.

SALT was boring. TING YIN watched till sleep while I kept trying to keep myself awake for the whole movie. Izzatd was like laughing at Indonesian's ability to do a subtitle as the subtitle totally do not make sense for the Eng part. movie's over, all went back to slp and the next morning's meet up time is 0800 Singapore time haha.

this time both TING YIN and I were puncture while YI MIN and Izzatd overslept. another free breakfast, this time i didnt eat as much as the day b4. i am really sick le. packed and all, we check out one room and the other ask for late checkout. we hired cab out again and went shopping. TING YIN and YI MIN and a fruitful trip. I bought nothing.

next, we are back.

idk

2010-06-13T18:56:00.001+08:00

idk, I'm starting to get bored of this kind of life now

a series of unexpected event day.

2010-05-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

started e day with tuition. nv realise wei hao was so good until zi bo came into my life. man, zi bo is soooooo argh.. everytime makes my blood boils. for e sake of money, i'll endure.. i'll just sit there and wait till he is settled le then i continue.. i seldom show fierce face to my students but to him, i MUST! wei hao was way better man. now then i realise.

go home slack a while then head out to my adidas sundown 10k women run!!. thats e start of the whole uneventful night.

i thought its like stand chart run, can reach there exactly the time. but i was wrong, awfully WRONG! i stood there waited and queue for 2h for that damn shuttle bus to the starting point.. 1.5h man. i really dont know myself why i could wait that long. seriously, this year i think is a year for testing my patience. just how many times have i been waiting for this long this year le.. I DONT LIKE TO WAIT.

my race start off time was 7pm, cut off time 10pm. when i finally get to board the bus, still have to walk 0.5h to the starting point!! e road was blocked. bus cant bring us to the starting point. while walking, made a new fren. or shld i say a walking buddy (that's what he intro me to his frens). kenneth was his name. we walked for half an hour to the starting point and chatted.

finally reached, it was already 10pm. decided not to run liao lol... but actually, ruoning asked mi to run full mara with her since i missed mine race... but i decided not to. nv had dinner, her race starts at midight, 42km race, run till morn, nv train for it. are e reasons i declined.

hang ard with kenneth's frens. and he offered to sent mi home as we live near and he drove. just that his car was parked far due to the road closure therefore we meet while walking in. (zhen, dont ever think bout it, its not gonna happen!! ha)

initially, i declined, saying shy... but in the end, i went with his car saying he can drop mi at the main road and i can cab back. saw sally. meet ruoning b4 her run. saw one of my sim classmate.

as kenneth's car was packed way far, we hitched rides from other pp to get his car. (1st time i hitch a ride sia) it was an ang moh couple. (ang moh peeps are just great man!!)

reached his car there le but no cabs so he offered to send mi to e main road aft picking up his frens from another hitched car. they were supposed to go changi airport to meet another fren but they cancelled. therefore everyone was being sent back by him. i reached home at 1pm.

i didnt get to run, but i got my 10k medal. haha. but if run, i also dont know i can make it not. got a little headache.

beautiful soul

2010-05-16T18:34:00.001+08:00

I always have this thought that music can represent something.. esp in relationship.. e many musics out there sings out what I always felt... there are sad sounds that sings my sad feeling, emo sounds when I felt emo.. or even lonely love sounds when I yearn for a him..

a few days earlier, someone insisted I go listen to this song. Beautiful Soul.. he says he really mean every word the lyrics said.. I heard, and I'm touched.

I did nothing. I just don't want to go into relationship this fast.. I still like my carefree life, my freedom.

bother

2010-04-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

it actually quite bother me e whole day for not receiving a sms

back!!!

2010-04-25T16:23:00.001+08:00

I'm back for like aft 3 months... reading e past few posts, makes mi feels that like sux at that period.. so negative n I really do mean it. nth seems to e happy bout. not my life, work, surroundings or friends.

this year, life seems better aft I started sch and new job.
this year, life seems unbelievable. nv thot I'll study this far, to the extend of going for a degree. nv thot I'll be working at government sector, to be a civil servant.
this year, life seems busier, but I'm like enjoying e busyness. although sometimes I'll whine bout that, but hey, I'm really enjoying that.
this year, made new friends again. they are great!! enjoyed their company esp e colleaguages. without them, work will be boring. of course, not forgeting my old friends, I'll find time n meet up with u guys too.. u guys are important in my life!!
this year, alone seems great cos I don't have e time. but there are still times when i'll be glad to have someone to cheer me on.. but usually those thots are just hanging on my mind for just a day or two n my life moves on again.

easier tired nowadays n always feels that I'm deprive of slp.. have already stopped switching on my lappies n now I wonder what's e use of owning so many when I have stopped using it. iPhone is so great n I'll be owning a third lappy soon......

happier compared to 2 months ago but temper still e same hahah.. pardon mi if I'm being nasty. but usually it's due to lack of slp so I couldn't think well...

work is doing fine.. just that I'll always be angry with myself for being that blur, scatterbrained, sotong and whatever. either I always get confused n mix up with the steps or procedures, or I'll always file everything in n forget to get a copy out for other purposes.. I'll always be printing extra copies of papers either cos I set e wrong no of copies or, forget need to print how many.. there are still alot of things that are so argh because of mi haha.....

sch's fine n I like e studying part.. everything just seems so interesting to be learnt.. I just want to learn. 1st exam tmr n here I am blogging now... haha

till then.........
Jocelyn Lim (Ms)
Payroll Officer

inactive

2010-01-19T14:09:00.000+08:00

inactive blog.
nothing interesting happening.
boring life.

lazy

2009-12-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

lazy to update le. this month can say busy ba. busy going out.
busy going out means cash depleting coz it's the season of giving too!!

spent $100 plus plus for the givings. going to be jobless soon. sch starting soon. now i wonder how am i going to pay the rest of the sem fees.

i wanna buy phone. and yes i will.

been sick these days without mummy at home. so what! haha yes. i can live myself alone and be sick next time le. i just dont like to take care. only do so when i feel like it. fever for days. so??? coughing my lungs out. so?? let mi be. Ha

i am unreasonable. n i dun care.

U!! BUG OFF. YOU ARE ANNOYING TO ME. STOP MSNING TELLING ME THAT I CAN CONTACT U IF I AM BORED OR NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. KNOW WHAT? I DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO SAVE THAT NUMBER OF YOURS. LET ALONE TAKE A 2ND LOOK OF THAT NO.

~.~

2009-12-08T15:04:00.002+08:00

on my bday, i did nth much. just went kbox with zhen n sally.
to be honest, i no longer looking forward to bdays anymore. felt just like any normal day. only like to use it as a topic to talk to friends. if they rmb my bday, i am happy already.

wed, meet up val n sanda. dinner and chill at starbucks. had fun.

thu, meet deqiang to watch mulan.

fri, went home for tuition, slack n watch my drama.

sat, meet up joyce, tingyin, steven. lunch and i watched new moon again....

sun, stand chart mara 21.1km. timing - 2h 51min 51sec. position - 5161.

mon, meet daren n vincent for dinner and the sudden movie decision. zombie land.

tue, i just hate tues that needed to be at work at 8am. i am sian ~.~

still out

2009-11-30T14:42:00.004+08:00

last post was out with ang on mon. continue...

tue was out with val n sanda boy for movie, gokusen. movie was great! makes mi want to go catch the drama too.. dinner was yummy. ate damn full. we had thai express. for 3 girls, we ordered 3 main, 3 sides, and 3 drinks.

wed was out with another gang of mine at sph. we just go out for dinner at cine there coffee club. then we went orchard central roof garden walk walk. peeps. yazid, johari and xin ying.

thu i took off. i was angry with si ah beng on wed night. waited for him for an hour to go home and in e end, i left without him. initial reason for taking off is bcoz i wanted to go settle some sch admin stuffs. n to rest too for been out everyday. but no money to settle sch fees yet so change of plan. some agent had arranged a job interview for me so i went instead. i wasnt in e mood for job interview, so i spent 2h to n fro just to screw that interview. went home, online awhile n slept frm 12p to 5.30pm. meet si ah beng at 6.15pm to drive to bugis eat steamboat with sanda boy, miao miao n peng peng. we ate seoul garden.

i was being called spoiler for the month )= coz i nv bring ic, we couldnt watch ninjia assassin. watched new moon instead.

fri went cs to work. i ran home frm novena again yeah!. this time, i improved by 10min. woohoo. so happy. meet wei hao for dinner at night. jun rong was there too. surprised to know he came. met them at ion, walk walk a while then drive to city sq at farrer park. we took like 1h to go sia. it wasnt far. we ate mahattan fish market. dunno wher to go next, we went home instead.

sat was like my otot (own time own target) day. i slp till what time i want to wake up. i slack till wat time i want. and i go out what time i want. went sitec fair ALONE. 2h to and fro n i stay there for only half an hour like that. walk to the crowd, say hi to a fren working, buy printer n squeeze out of the crowd. the printer wasnt handle with much care.

i was tricked. but they didnt know i am good in doing staunts at scaring pp. was suppose to meet zhen 7pm at amk hub. but i went home 1st to put the printer then out again. when i am at home, the house looks diff. i sense something weird n go out again. went popular to shop for assessment books for new student on 2 dec. met zhen. both of us are like busy smsing. i was msging joyce and she was, at the later part, i realise was sally. zhen say wanna borrow shirt frm mi so go home with mi.

reached home. i forget to think why she go in my hse 1st when i open the door. i was behind her. i saw one guy wearing cap. i thot was my sis's fren. then i saw tingyin trying to hide. suddenly my vision was full with pp that i couldnt recognise at first glance. joyce, tingyin, steven, sally was at my hse. waiting for mi to go home. a surprised bday celebration was held frm mi.

i learnt later frm my mom that my sis n her took my frenz no frm my phone while i was bathing weeks agao to call them. kevin, wei hao, deqiang, shirley n valerie was called too. but they couldnt make it.

no wonder on thu, val msg mi saying sorry cannot go to my bday celebration that my sis called. at that instance, i was puzzled n replied huh. then she say send wrong pp. was busy talking to si ah beng they all so nv really care that msg much.

sat was really a surprise frm them. but there's something i have to admit. i am really not a good host.

sun. slp till 12pm. on lappy, and suddenly feel like filling my brand new harddisk that's been exchanged frm seagate with pics. keep delaying the meeting time with sanda boy. went novena cs, united sq, bugis then finally to val's bday chalet. bought 2 things for val as present. but see this n that makes mi want to buy for her. shared bought 21 macarons n walking dog balloon with sanda boy for her. i like small kid like that when buying e balloon for her. keep smilling like a kid and say it's cute.

mon. today. i am going cs to work later.! sian~

letter of 'the change of my life'

2009-11-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

received letter frm sim. i'm going to school!!!! on 4 jan.

that is like so early la. coz i assume i will only be going sch at 20 jan as daren says sch always start at the 20th of the sem for the local sim.

i have mixed feelings. fer sch fees wise, i have a solution to it already. but just duno whether my solution works as it's just my thinking right now. if everything goes well, thu i'll be going to sch n pay my 1st sem fees.

going to sch, my life will have changes le. lesser time.
aft 1 dec, then i'll start thinking of my plans. right now this week, just go out n enjoy myself 1st ba. although i am tired already now. fri, i have plans to jog back to home again frm novena. just duno will i realise that plan not.

date with ang.

2009-11-24T00:14:00.002+08:00

dinner with ang. at heaven's loft. i just like the atmosphere there. it's nice and cosy. i like their dessert very much too. it's nice.

brought her up to orchard central's roof garden. nice scenery. camwhore.... haha.

received early bday present frm her too. thanks (=

meet up again!! i want to eat seafood!!! and KBOX!!!

sun

2009-11-23T00:45:00.005+08:00

look how red my face is aft run. forever like this duno why

yesh! i finally accomplise the aim i had 4 years ago. ran frm novena back home!

5 colour plates, 2 red plates, 1 white plate, 1 soft shell crab, 1 hotate scallop and 1 dragon mango sushi. is it alot??

i like this sushi - dragon mango sushi

stuff one big sushi in my mouth

今天的风很大.

有时侯, 坐在一个咖啡厅里, 喝喝茶, 吹吹风, 想想事情, 感觉也不错. (=

sat

2009-11-23T00:15:00.006+08:00

fri

2009-11-23T00:14:00.003+08:00

her just cut hair.

out

2009-11-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

last wed, was out dinner with wei hao at holland v, the three moneys and 2am dessert shop.

last thu, was out dinner with family to celebrate mum's bdae at yishun, xin wang cafe.

last fri, was out meeting joyce and till i meet her then i know she is meeting someone else too. so e 3 of us went for dinner and chats. they chat. i sat listen n smile coz tired le.

yesterday, meet up indispensiable 4 for belated bday celebration for fam yi min joyce!!! the 3 girls wore white tops, the 3 of them wore jeans, the 3 girls wore shoes. haha we are like always one not the same. pics later in later post.
activity was flyers, massage (hand, shoulder and foot) then dinner. was like thinking of going wher next but tingyin having headache so the 3 of us left early and joyce meet up zatd.

today, i finally achieved my aim which is like 4 years ago... haha. i ran all the way home from novena back to home!!!! like finally. on the way, i was thinking like reach bishan park, go run 3.5k then go home. but i did not in e end. it was tiring running frm novena to home. sunny, windy and i was running against the wind!!! i'm grateful for the wind. but the resistant slowed mi lots. running is not like running at all lol. but nevertheless, i made it all the way back home!! slow but at least i resist walking!! felt some sense of achievement till dinner time. )= felt guilty coz i felt effort wasted. dinner at suki sushi with kevin at amk. i only ordered what i like. i dun feel it's much but ate till halfway i felt full already )=
stuff everything in my mouth in the end too. haha full till keep walking around to digest.

tml, i'll be meeting shirley for dinner.

tue, i'll be meeting valerie and sanda for movie.

wed, i hope i'll be able to change the dinner date with yazid and jo to that day instead of thu so i still can go dinner with cs the peeps (=

mum's bdae

2009-11-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

raining

2009-11-19T14:23:00.002+08:00

it's raining now.

walking past the corridors, noticed the rain was heavy.
at that instance, i felt like going out in the rain.
feel the rain drops on my head.
feel the rain drops on my hands.

i suddenly wanted to go to the beach and sat there starring at the sea.
i suddenly wanted to be a day of cinderella on 1 dec.
i suddenly wanted to be in someone's arms, gazing stars at night.

all these, are just sudden wants.

holland v

2009-11-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

meet up with wei hai. and, I HATE HIM ! haha. late again. half an hour. 2nd time that i have to wait so long.

met at cine, then we go holland v for dinner. went the 3 monkies. 1st time go there. not bad. dessert at 2am dessert bar. nice place to chill. i like.!

so long nv go holland v. and this is the first time i go there to chill and not to work! used to work there for one of the outlets i am working for. always walk straight to bus stop aft work.

holland v will be one of my chill's selects. =)

OMG !

2009-11-19T00:06:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! i actually rmb e wrong date for my mum's bdae!!! it's 19 nov. not 20!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !

2009-11-17T01:05:00.001+08:00

ate steamboat again... with si ah beng.

2012

2009-11-13T10:19:00.002+08:00

booked tix to watched on ytd. luckily i booked. it's 3 timeslot fully sold when i go collect my tix.

first time been to downtown east mall. the moment i stepped in, i already made a fool of myself in front of sanda n zoel. i didnt know that the moment u stepped in, it's 2nd level already. i thot still need to go up so i walked hastily to the closing lift. pressed 2 but cannot. n followed the lift to level 4. then esca down.

sanda saw mi goin up thot she saw the wrong person till i told her i really went up. wat a fool i am haha. movie was still early so we snack 1st. aft movie going for steamboat. movie was long. sat till my butt damn pain. sit here and there everyday. luckily i am alone in office nw so every now and then, i'll pace here and there, do some sit ups, swing here and there with the chairs haha.

movie was nice. for a moment, i suddenly feel like watching titanic when the cruise was about to be swallowed by the huge tsunami. there were moments too when i nearly teared. when i watch these kinds of disaster movies, i cant help but to think what will happen if it were to happen to mi too? will i struggle for survival? will i cherish with what i have? will i be able to tell my family how much i love them and ask for forgiveness? will i fight with all the rest just to make sure my family will be in an advantage over them? or will i just wait to die. i dont know. all these seems possible to me.

zoel ask, do u believe 2012 will happen?? i believe. but not to the movie's extent. maybe something natural will really happen but not as serious as to wipe out the whole globe to nothing. in the movie, the poles of the North and South were shifted, MT E was no longer the highest mt while some mt at India was e highest.

steamboat was eaten with sleepy eyes, stoney look and with that smile that duno smile for wat. didnt eat like much but got my beef steamboat crave satisfied.

10 min

2009-11-11T18:07:00.001+08:00

first time been to subordinate court. ALONE.
first time there but been in there for like 10 mins jiu go home.

off work at 1 pm, transit at home for 2 times.

current obsession

2009-11-09T00:04:00.004+08:00

these kinds of shoes are my current wants.

been out looking at these ytd. but there are either too high in heels or damn ex or the heels part are damn thin. dun eve noe if i can walk with those thin heels not. and these days, i have been wondering how can ladies walk with that and some can even dance with it!!!

out

2009-11-08T23:57:00.007+08:00

went out again. bought my sling bag like finally. but..... i guess i will say i want to buy bags again!! haha. now left shoe.
i like how i went to orchard central's ben and jerry to chill
i like how i can be a kid and just snap pictures all way
i like how i can send without thinking 2nd thoughts

spells trouble

2009-11-08T01:38:00.002+08:00

in trouble oh no... i am into brands too! oh mi god.........

went mango bought a blouse n a pants
went forever 21 bought a pair of jean

nearly bought a levi shoe
nearly bought printer home

in like 5h like that, i was at ion, wisma, taka, paragon, tanglin mall.
just enjoy shopping alone. yes ALONE! 哈

wall

2009-11-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

have been meeting up less with peeps.
the peeps that could make my cherry self is gone.

have since started building walls around mi.

hated tue

2009-11-03T10:00:00.002+08:00

I DONT LIKE TUESDAY!!!

i dont like coming at work at 8am.
i dont like doing cashiering duties on tue for that extra half an hour to be early.

my heart will feel so angry that everything i dont like. want to work alone instead.
will feel angry with sindhu for not doing the duties and become me instead.
will feel angry with daren that he slacks more than mi then when he last day le, his leftover work will be mine.

seriously, these times i have been wishing both of them faster be gone la. stay here or not, also does not make any diff. i also want to be off frm here too!!!

tml will be sindhu's last day and daren's last day on fri. BYE!

i am grumbling. AND ANGRY!

my wanted list

2009-10-26T01:54:00.004+08:00

Sony Vaio P

Big Leather Watch

Sling Bag

New Change Of Wardobe

New Phone

New Shoes

these are my wanted list

one of these days, i will make it all come true soon!!!

in a week

2009-10-26T01:41:00.005+08:00

in a week, i am in touch with these 4 guys. anyone who knows me well, u knew my story ba.

went kbox with deqiang on tue. rode his new class 2a bike.

went movie with wei hao on sat. we just watch a movie as my mum cooks, so i went home for dinner.

went walking around with kevin today, sun. shopping for his fren's present. we went several places. bugis to iluma, to the grand cathay, to orchard central, to novena for dinner and lastly to serangoon for dessert. i meet him at 5pm plus lol. can go so many places. 1pm then reach home. ate dessert with his frenz and we hang ard there for 2h! cab home with his frenz.
oh, funny incident of the day....
we were walking ard at iluma when someone approaches us, gave us a photo. kevin's reaction straight was wah wedding photo ar? the guy says nono, just give us to see and we could try out. we rejected him and he went probing whether are we couples not. i shake my head and he went further asking couples to be? i shake my head somemore. we are just friends.
he's friends also thot we are together.

sat, work with zoel. learnt that he have changed a new target. decided to give up le. trying to talk less to him.

i just see them as friends.

destressed

2009-10-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

destressed myself at kbox. but tired myself up for the week. zombie gonna be.

kbox with deqiang. rode his big bike but broke aft we travel awhile. bused to amk for kbox instead. in between, he went back and fetch his bike back while i am alone there singing myself. haha. new experince

2009-10-19T17:09:00.004+08:00

i thought i am out of the getting free tees environment once i am out of school.
during school, i just have too many free tees to be taken that some i hardly even wear.

today, the free tees are like coming to me again.
i am like getting something everyday. almost everyday, he will bring up something to my room for me. @.@
i have too many mags waiting for me to be read, to be brought home.......

haha somehow this post seems like i am complaining for getting the free stuffs. oops. maybe?

郭采洁 - 笨的可以

2009-10-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

我的心情写在歌词里。

郭采洁 - 笨的可以

how sweet

2009-10-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

how sweet it would be if you could read my mind.
how sweet it would be if you knows what i am thinking.
how sweet it would be if you could make my dreams come true.
how sweet it would be if you knows when i needed you to be there.
how sweet it would be if you could always be my side to make my day up.
how sweet it would be if you knows me so well that you know what i'll be doing next.
how sweet it would be if you could take hug me and whisper all the sweet things in my ear to tell me how much you like me and will take care of me forever.

however sweet it was, i am still wandering in my tracks, awaits.

didnt

2009-10-15T14:38:00.003+08:00

didnt get to sing with my love last night. we just have ichiban boshi for dinner. at novena instead.
this place, i must try not to frequent my dropover there whenever someone is working. dont wish to see myself getting burnt with the fire that is flaming now. now trying to control the flame and hope i'll be able to put out the fire b4 i really get injured.

but what i hope most is this flame will turn out to be sparks instead.

sat, i am already thinking of wat songs to sing le my love.

my love

2009-10-14T16:08:00.000+08:00

my love, i cant wait to meet u up fer kbox~~ whoo....

2009-10-11T21:11:00.001+08:00

mum say like being bitten by dog.
sph boss, shanker say like been burnt by fire.

the rest all say NICE!!! haha.

$10 ktv

2009-10-06T01:37:00.003+08:00

went ktv with Franz, Denise, Simon and Alex frm sph...
whoo cheap and fun...
i still wanna singgggggg!!!

zhen! lets go haha

lalala~~~

ps. thank you for sending me home, deqiang. =)

250 hair cut

2009-10-05T00:37:00.001+08:00

like ytd, go be a good person, go back work 2nd time in e night. 10.30am to 2.30pm is my working time while 7pm to 10.30pm is e time i helping to work.

booked appointment fer haircut at 4pm. new hair cut, it cost mi $250. haha. i cut, dye and highlight hair. i just sat there, let the stylist decide. coz i got no preference and ok with everything. for those who are eager to know wher i cut, it's

ICON by Shunji MatsuoIsetan Orchard, Level 1435 Orchard Road, Wisma AtriaTel: 65 68366567

haha. i was late fer part 2 work but well, i am like the pearl on the palm 掌上明珠. nv get scolding frm manager, and she even bought mi chicken rice as dinner with 15min off to eat. so, i am like work 2h like that hoho.

stalk

2009-10-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

u want to stalk, stalk at your own risk. haha. this my space, i say whatever i like and feels. if u happened to find yourself being written here negatively, i'm sorry but this is what i felt for i dont lie in this blog ha!

this is me. that u are reading. someone who often emos, daydream, fantasize and always living in her own world.

tired day

2009-10-04T00:56:00.003+08:00

work 4h, then went to meet Aidi, Ben, Edward, Noor and Wei Yu for a short chill. i am tired ba i guess. when they were talking, i am like want to fall aslp haha.

back to work for another 4.5h. help them to work lor. ps kevin for dinner. now i am tired. too tired to entertain anyone now haha.

jiing yih msn mi. dun feel like entertaining him lol. everyday keep msning ask mi hows my day. as if u know me that well. lol. better stop before i felt irritated ar haha.

felt very sorry to weihao. i keep declining his meet up for movie. but i am really busy la. so now, i really need to be booked ok chan weihao!!! haha now i really admit le. last time i keep claiming no, i am free what. haha but now, i seems to have activities everyday. always trying to make my day worthwhile with as much things as i can do. and thus, i tired myself out...

fyp meeting!!!

2009-10-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

0.0!! yes, i have graduated from poly and not studying right now. working as temp admin till year end. next year then study.

meet up with my past fyp mates... Wai Fen, An Jie, Sikin!!!
so long no see. always time not gam. now finally gam, but i keep changing the time and place here and there. oops. sorry. hehe.

in e end, we settled at popeye at sing flyers there. i tell them, dec we must go take sing flyers!!! for my sake. my bdae lea haha.

we will be having another fyp outing again... movie~~~

camwhored.!

reason having the meet up time and place keep changing coz i suddenly went over to kumar's hse for his bdae. can sae is my 1st time to an indian's hse. nice exposure. it's that gang of steamboat frenz and some other guys... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KUMAR AND MY BROTHER CHOON BOON!!! =]

02.10.09

2009-10-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!!

but i felt lously for this fri.
dun feel like working,
felt irritatingly bored with work,
feel like hiding one corner.

so many pp i will like going out to meet with,
but i am one job down on feeling rich for shopping.

work just seems "huh work again."
want to have free time off but no cash...

got free time, i will make myself busy like shit.
i am a contradict myself. want to have free time, but i will always plan my days full of events till i felt suffocated and annoyed. but if i have free times, i like it to be fully utilize with everything i could squeeze in a day to make the day worth it.

no more

2009-09-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

I SHALL USE THE MONEY AND CABBED ALL MY LIFE INSTEAD.

i am not going to learn anymore. hehe. burden dropped whoo nice~~

one less burden to spend, more money for own spendings!!!

steamboat bbq

2009-09-29T01:25:00.001+08:00

aft work, meet up with joyce 1st then head over to bugis to meet Denis and Kumar for steamboat. thier frens came too cos was an early bdae celebration for kumar. joyce and i felt out of place.

Kenny, Andy came and at least, i knew them. 9 of us in total. had a good meal, good chat and good laughs.

joyce left early due to night work while i stay on longer. i left when they were planning for next activity. nice get together although i am not even close to them before. i just happened to be popping in recently.

cheers~~

steven bdae celebration

2009-09-28T01:00:00.003+08:00

sat, work at cs, cancelled tuition last min so meet joyce earlier.

reached earlier, walk ard. went to mango, my fav shop. bought again.
joyce came, we went to secret recipe, chop 5 tables for 10 seaters. settled cake surprise with "Happy SUPPLIES Steven!" wording and make it a surprise for him.

one by one came, we chatted, ate, joked, make fun of each other and embaress steven with the sudden cake 'supplies'!!! haha

peeps.... Steven, Joyce, Farhan, Kun Rong, Jeremy, Fadhli, Andy, Arif and me.

went out of vivo for a walk. the guys were like trying to make steven wet at the water area. finally caught him and held him down at the water splash point, but too bad, it was off. it's 10pm already.

catched movie, phobia 2. so while waiting for the movie to start, we went lvl 3 to lepak. the guys bought jim beam and coke. we drank, and ah long still cant give up the idea of getting stev wet. chase him again, wanted to throw him into that little pool of water.

went timezone to kill time. with only $9 credit, we play like crazy. cant topup coz cashier closed. played throw balls game. ah long was so high till he search the bin for things to throw. he threw water bottle that was found in the bin.

played 7 men ddr with 2 players. they are like trying to dismantle the machine i tell u. haha videos will be uploaded at my facebook soon.

played 9 men and women parapara with each a 10s's turn. check out my facebook for the videos. everyone looks funny while dancing.

all sweaty went movie. most was scared. for me, aft the 2nd story i dun feel like watching it anymore. I JUST DONT LIKE GORE MOVIES!! felt so bloody disgusted off and pain for them. eww!

steamboat

2009-09-26T01:17:00.002+08:00

host steamboat at my hse.
invites to joyce, steven and tingyin.

gave money $200 to go buy and prepare the foods. i bought some more myself. so i guess i spent like $250.

i am tired for not getting enough sleeps. but the most tired person of all is my mom. she have been preparing everything herself the whole day. love you mom.

was so tired till didnt eat much. even putting in the food to my mouth and chew felt so lazy.

choc fondue with fruits as desserts. fruit list - green apple, strawberry, grape, banana, kiwi, guava. bought mashmallows too but forget to open.

got a new rumoured bf. but seriously, i did not do anything. just doing what my job needs to do.

the ugly truth seeked

2009-09-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

finally i watched the ugly truth. it wasnt with zoel. and i bet anyone who is reading this right would would have guessed it correct.

I WATCHED WITH DENIS!!! haha. first time out with him.

satisfied for the watching the movie i wanted to watch. but, i got more movies i wanted to watch haha.

first time

2009-09-23T11:25:00.002+08:00

first time to pub last night.

aft work, went dinner with franz and denise frm sph. vegetarian fer dinner. then head down to chinatown, a gay pub fer drinks. never been to singapore clubs and pubs b4. only been once to kl's pub last year.

we chatted, i knew more about them. they knew mine too. whatever things i am surprise to know about shall be kept there.

work.

2009-09-22T16:22:00.002+08:00

the working days just continues.. with diff working environment. like i am playing everywhere i work. which, sometimes feels tired. needed lots of energy. to be active, high, entertaining while working.

therefore whenever i am left alone, i just want the world to be me only. shut myself to everything.

alone in the office, listen to music n work.
alone at home, stay in bed all day and online.
alone while traveling, listen to music and stone.
alone while waiting, listen to music and observe pp walking by.

alone, is sometimes i much prefered. it doesnt take much energy, i can do whatever things i like at my own time own target.

i have been dreaming lately of how i wanted my home to be. an apartment at one of the newly built condos, with sea blue as my wall paint. low lights for the house to create the nice ambience. with sometimes, i will light candles, essence oil. with my laziness, i will not be cooking and doing housework. but, i will hire a part time maid. 3 times a week. and once every 3 mths, i will get the cleaning company to have my hse wipe out clean!! haha.

my house will not have a lot of stuffs. because, i will have the tenancy to throw stuffs if i didn't use it fer like months. i have this thinking where nvm , throw already next time still need then buy again lor.

and so this is how i think my money is going out more than how i wanted to save.

i want to own a hse of mine!!!!

the long wkn.

2009-09-21T14:36:00.003+08:00

this wkn was long for a rest, but ut doesn't applies to me. i have been working for this loong wkn.

i guess i am really a stupid woman. like wat peggy says. i waited 3hrs for si ah beng to finish work for movie. waited at cold storage. this is how i ended up waiting.

at 11am sph, i recieved call frm auntie lilian asking me to go work frm 7pm to 10.30pm. was rejecting initially but lost to her haha.

went cold storage straight. slept on e bus. reached, saw miss mary. then i knew i dont need to work anymore. peggy msg mi at 6.15pm but i was too busy to be asleep and miss it. this is how i waited 3h coz tot i am working till closing with zoel so ask him wanna catch a movie not aft work. nv work, so wait lor instead of goin hm coz i confirm will feel sian to come out again.

bought my long waited 5th book frm DAN BROWN!! The Lost Symbol. while waiting, i read the book. but i didnt have the mood coz i dont like e feeling of readin book now when i haven pass my ftt. it's like the book will forever be stopped halfway. i like to read it in one shot but i still need to force myself to at least study somemore. the temptation of reading is so great lol. my iweeky have been left upopen fer the past 3 weeks. tml s the 4th issue that i cant read yet.

ok, back to e wkn.
although i am working throughout the wkns, i am fine with it. this wkn, the timings all sounds good. working with zoel, sanda, miao, ah peng are my favs. coz i'll be talking soooooo much haha. for this, i must control haha cannot always show myself laughing out loud. shhh

sat, waited for si ah beng.
ytd, waited for him again. fer 3h again. i end at 6.30pm, while he at 10pm again. went orchard walk walk while waiting. back with dunking donuts. treat sanda, si ah beng, miao, peggy, florence. trained wif him to his hse to pick his car. waited for him downstair while he change. the girl he liked called. ask him go home wait fer her call. what can i do?? tell him i go home lor. he said mayb watch the 1am plus de aft the call come find me. he showed mi the way home but i ended up cabbing home coz i duno i walked till where le. only know i cab at orchird park condo.

homed, bathed n online. 1am plus then say no movie le ba.
felt stupid. but at least now i knew i didnt like him as what i tot i am ba. i dun feel sad though while walking. felt nth juz felt stupid.

today we are standing in the same counter again. just like past, playin and sneering at each other. waited fer him again coz he drove and say can send mi home. we didnt talk much on the way home. coz i dont know what to talk.

2009-09-14T17:25:00.000+08:00

Friends I am hanging out/contacting with recently….

Joyce – most frequent confidant, sister, indispensable 4
Ting Yin – indispensable 4
Steven – indispensable 4

Wei Zhen – sister
Sally – mummy

Daren – sph work mate, play mate
Franz – sph work mate, play mate
Lashimee – sph work mate, chat mate

Deqiang – mate who cares for me
Kevin – first ex but we are still hanging out frequently
Wei Hao – movie mate

Zoel – cold storage si ah beng, talk crap mate

Alex – sph

ot

2009-09-09T00:45:00.002+08:00

dq sent me to work this morn. need to reach by 8am so ask him to sent me since he is working near me and at 8am too.

lunched with franz and gang. b4 that, i napped an hour with at times startled by calls or noises fearing boss is coming.

initial plan was climb. climb with denis and e seniors. ended up doin ot. not bad though. i could surf net, with no one online to chat with at that hour. ha.

homed with boss and his best fren, alex. alex sent me back. i was sitting in the passenger seat. while boss, shanker sat behind. i felt awkward that shanker sat behind. but well, coz he alight first so say i sit in front.

on e way back, alex and i chatted a bit.

meet up wif sally n wei zhen fer dinner. while mom will be away for a week so i'll be like alone although dad is around cause i will be quite busy this week to be alone.

I am not talking.

2009-09-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

This, written during work at 10am this morning.

Because I don’t feel like talking.
Now, I feel like taking the rest of the day off and left him alone. Ha.
So tired. Feel like sleeping.

Joyce keep asking me to give dq a chance. Saying not many people can after so many years still have feelings for the other de. I don’t know. But I think maybe one day I will really give in and stop putting on the I am strong although I am single.

Now, I still like being alone. I can meet anyone as and I like. I can do whatever things I like. I have more time to myself to be emo. Now, I quite like to do things on my own. Shop.

Dq sent me to work today. Needed to reach by 8am so ask him whether can send me here or not as he works around here and start at 8am too. He lived a Hougang, biked to AMK to fetch me and to Aljunied.

Climbing later and I don’t think I can climb that much. Finally sick. I will not be bothered to take any care. Just hope tomorrow will not have fever so that I still can go skin centre easily.

Tomorrow taking final theory again. After like one month. Seriously, I lost the interest in getting the license. Force myself to read yesterday and I don’t feel like reading any more after a bit. If tomorrow fail, I think I will just end it as what it is. Unless, the desire to learn is here again.

Oops, I think I am emo yet again.

my shopping list

2009-09-07T01:13:00.003+08:00

Yoga pants
Sports bra
Blouse
Shorts
Jeans
Pumps
Sling bag
Training shoe

indispensable 4 -1 kl trip

2009-09-07T00:42:00.002+08:00

Prologue…
A 2 days 2 nights trip to KL, with one day’s activity at Genting. The peeps are Joyce, Steven and I. Indispensable 4 minus 1. Ting Yin couldn’t make it due to her violin lessons. The trip started from Friday night, 04.09.09 to Sunday night 06.09.09.

7.15pm, I meet up with Joyce and her naughty boy, Zatd. Wait and wait for that Steven.
Bid farewell to Zatd and the journey started!! Public bused to Johor Larkin then we purchase bus tickets to KL. Bought from the wrong bus company. The bus keeps stopping for very long. We ended up reaching our hostel at 3am for a 9pm bus. The bus also never starts on time. I slept almost all the way. Both Steven and Joyce said it is amazing that I could actually sleep on that ride when they couldn’t. Sleep and wake, wake and sleep are what they are doing on the ride.

Bathed and all, 4am plus all of us are lying on the bed. With Joyce on my right and Steven on my left. The single and double beds put together. We are back to the hostel we last went last year. It was Fad that gang’s room. Steven forbid us to sleep say we should stay awake till morn cause we will be waking up early too for Genting. But all of fall asleep afterall with Joyce the first.

7am Joyce’s alarm went off. She went to shower then Steven. I only woke up when Steven went showering haha. Shower, dressed, off we went to Puduraya to purchase bus tickets back to Singapore for the next day. Bought bus cum cable car tickets to Genting. On the bus way up to the cable car station, the car broke down. Engine overheated. Stranded at the roadside for like half an hour before we could carry on the trip up. Camwhore.

All of us were damn famished. My last proper meal was on Friday lunch, then a slice of cake at 5pm. It was already 12noon and we haven hate breakfast yet.

We settled at Ah Yat Abalone for a hearty Dim Sum brunch. After that heavy brunch, Steven insisted we go theme park and play space shot right away. Joyce and I keep refusing cause we just ate so much. We are afraid our stomach can’t take it. In the end, we went for pirate ship for the first ride. Joyce and my worries put to a stop after the ride. Haha suddenly the food felt disappeared half in the stomach. Went on with other rides including space shot and the ride where it start our team. Corkscrew!! We sat twice for that ride. The ride improved and I like the thrill of the twisted screw turn that made us went upside down.

Steven was so restless that we went for dinner at 6pm, pizzahut. Stuffed crust pizza as he wanted, with waffle fries, lasagna, sweet and spicy wings and drinks.

Cable car down and we are surrounded by the mist. Videos and pictures are in my facebook. I keep having the pressure in my ear that at one time, I almost couldn’t hear what I am talking. Like last time, my ears kept having the blocks for very very very long.

Petaling street up next. Actually I wanted to buy so many things but decided not. Decided to buy the originals in Sinapore instead. We head back hostel early that night all was tired. Bathed, talk a while and zzz.

Sun,, I was the first to wake up to bath cause I am very slow. We packed, checked out and prata for breakfast. Train to the nearest train station then cab to One Utama to climb at camp 5. Only climbed high walls as we don’t have enough time to hang around there. Did a few coloured routes, tried crack wall for the first like finally after 3 times there and I am back into climbing!! Chop chop bathed, da bao A&W then cab to Puduraya for bus home. Shared cab with Steven back home.

funny.

2009-09-07T00:38:00.003+08:00

funny how the room seems.
funny how when each people looked while walking into the room today
funny how different department people will come in today
funny how the awkward the situation looks when the room is silence.

in this server room that belongs to lashimee, daren and idaren was off. so left the girls.
franz was here, next uncle yeo, then doreen, and kok soon.
suddenly, the small little room was filled with so many people. how badly i wanted to laugh at seeing their expressions on the faces.
with the 'ay, why got so many people here.'

today i made 2 new frenz. ben and simon
had lunch with a grp of pp
franz, alex, guang yuan, uncle michael, ben, simon

9 months

2009-09-02T01:36:00.003+08:00

9 months since i climbed and....
it's a year that i have been remained single..!! haha

climbed at climb asia, farrer park then tau huay. the usuals.

climbed with my eye candy senior haha...

the fingers pain are back, which i kind of miss it.
and the muscles are growing again. gosh. i hate that.

dun haf the strength to climb much but it doesn't matter any more. i am not into competitive climbing. leisure climb is what i am into now. get around with my old climbing frenz and chats is wat i enjoyed now and i miss the feelin of climbin pains. but not the blisters though ha!

Random

2009-08-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

working time passes so slow. i nearly doze off duno how many times.

aft work meet up with shirley. we walk walk around for a while then off to dinner. everywhere was like crowded so we settled at Big O at wheelock.

aft dinner, we were like thinking what to do next. i suggested movie and never will i expect shirley to suggest kbox!!! some more is overnight kbox...

she called her mum and off we go to kbox. on e way, we took many pictures...

was tired. yawn so many times. shirley even doze off. even me, i can also sometimes sing till i doze off and come back sing again. that feels funny. she sang till halfway stop singing coz hoarse le. mi too 1st time sing halfway e session also voice went off. but nevertheless, i still sing and kept singing. i don't care haha.

reached home at 6.45am. bathed, online till 9am then slp till now. dun feel like goin to lay peng's bdae chalet lea. no one to go with.

my voice is ok anyway haha.

Jocelyn

2009-08-27T01:16:00.001+08:00

my space at work.

24.08.09

2009-08-24T22:51:00.001+08:00

24.08.09 Rainy

Set the wrong alarm to wake up meet Joyce first. Because of me, the whole day’s event was dragged an hour later.

For the first time, I could actually on my own walked to Joyce’s house. Hurray! Haha. I am the first companion of the day haha. She drove us to Century Square to meet up the rest, Steven and the key person of the day, TING YIN!! We will be celebrating her 20th birthday in advance.

Went popular to buy a notebook and we settled at Sakae Sushi to do what is needed to be done. Photo pasting and captions of the pictures. At the same time, we ordered 20 Egg sushis which is her likes and also a significant of her 20 years of age.

Videos and pictures are plenty. To show how good we are, we made her ate 10 while the rest we split within the 3 of us haha. For a certain period she said she is not touching on egg sushi. Haha. Tingyin, lasagna was on our mind too you know. But too bad, it’s rare to find non beefed lagsana.

Drove down to Sentosa. Next plan on hand, Underwater World ~~ woohoo.
While Ting Yin and Steven went to the toilet, Joyce and I saw a small boy was holding up a starfish from the close up tank at the entrance. That gave us a dare idea!! Haha ask her to hold up the starfish!! Joyce videoed her while I took pictures. It took a long time because she don’t dare. And she even scared those standing beside her that are trying to hold or touch the fishes because she was freaked out. That was funny.
In the aquarium, pictures ~~

Next were 4D shows Pirates and Cine Blast Motion. We bought a combo ticket for these. First time experience for them on both, but for me, only the 4D show. The shows were nice. Especially the 4D show Pirates, you will feel as thought you are in the show with all the special effects other than the visuals. I missed the biting sense part cause I was crossing my leg. They said it was pain haha.

Walked our way back to Beach station where the car was parked at the car pack. On the way, we did silly things. Shot jumping pictures, sang birthday song to Ting Yin out loud, took stupid photos. There is this spot where water will be squirting out from the figurines, and I wanted to squat under the water to take picture. I nearly get myself wet if I were seconds later to squat haha. The water was squirting while I was squatting.

Drove to Orchard for dinner but we don’t the way there. Just try our way driving around. Dinner was at Takashimaya for we have reserved a cake at Crystal Jade so we decided to dine there too together. Ordered 6 dishes and once again, we thought we would be paying a lot by looking at what we ordered. The bill came in cheap and we also suspect that as usual haha. Surprise for Ting Yin again. Joyce and I made excuses to the loo but instead, we came in with a cake lighted.

After dinner, Joyce drove all of us home. At the car park, we surprise Ting Yin one last time with her present.

The whole day’s event was a secret to Ting Yin. She didn’t what will be going on next and kept asking us. Haha she said the suspense is bothering her. Don’t know what will be going on next and felt insecure. Haha Ting Yin, that’s the point! Hehe.

I paid everything first. In all, I swiped $400 plus. I only bring $12 bucks out haha.

NOT MY DAYS.........

2009-08-19T00:47:00.002+08:00

sun's happening, regretted.

mon, am i testing my own patience??

tue, pissed.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK MUCH LE.

2009-08-19T00:39:00.003+08:00

dear friend my birthday celebration on 30aug.. pls confirm with me your attendance.. says:
erm this might sound weird or something.. or will make u think i wanna play with u.. but i serious.. i start falling for u again.. i kNow u dont have the feeling with me.. just wanna say out wht my heart thinking.. can u be my gf?? do i have a chance or will it be rejection as a ending??

-=+^ Jocelyn ^+=- says:
ps, i using my own lappy now.
i juz sign out from desktop. did you send something?

dear friend my birthday celebration on 30aug.. pls confirm with me your attendance.. says:
check history
if don't have then nvm le..
something cant say twice..
i off to slp le.. night

out

2009-08-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

time to get out!!!...

getting frenz out to meet. at least for nw, i am feeling a little rich enough to meet up wif frenz haha.
trying to save but duno saving for wat.

mon to fri used only like $20 to $30 then wkn, juz fer food can come out till like $7 to $8 just fer lunch during work. splurge on fast food. argh.. muz stop doing that. not good haha.

met wei hao for movie aft work. b4 meeting him, went levi strauss to get him presie. haha one shot buy 3 pp de presie. bought wei hao's, kevin's and deqiang's. last week, in the same shop, bought shirley's too haha. oops.. lazy me right bought t-shirt fer every one. oops haha... ay, at least i gt the heart lea.. sincere. frm mi only lea nv share. haha

watched UP 3D. i was expecting something more. but to me, it felt so so.

we watch District 9 fer round 2. dun even noe what is that movie. watched fer e sake of watch haha. we went subway fer dinner b4 round 2 starts. while watchin disrict 9, i was like omg, wat is this rating again??? too gore fer mi!!! haha. it was sick to mi.. aft the movie then i check the tix sub and found it was M18. omg... nearly felt like vomiting aft a full meal.

fail

2009-08-11T22:46:00.001+08:00

oh i fail ftt... so unhappy.

meet up wif deqiang fer movie. watched the hangover... laugh out loud.
mood slightly better nw.

haiz~~~

yet to book ftt again... feel like givin up...

it's all about watchin..

2009-08-09T19:39:00.004+08:00

went sci centre to see da vinci exhibit. zatd, joyce and i. then joyce and i went to meet steven n tingyin.

dinner next at marina sq b4 the main objective of the day!!!

!!!$ING DOLLAR$!!!

a real funny comedy.. shall check out musicals at esplanade often.. my contemporary dance.... hehe sis fam...

GI Joe lastly at 0150. supper at hk cafe b4 movie.. we haf too much time to spare b4 movie. zatd join us again fer movie.

homey at 0430..
cs work start at 1000 till 1500.
homed jogging 4.5km and 50 sit ups!! haha shall start my trainin again. preparin myself now fer 30 aug tanning session. damn lookin forward to it sis zhen!!!!

pizza

2009-08-09T19:23:00.002+08:00

pizza supreme, hawaiian pizza, 10 spicy drumlets, 2 garlic bread.

daren puttin cheese.....

look, who started eatin!! lashimee.

i am not the glutton one ok.. haha.

pizza fer lunch!!! 3 pp, and that's wat fer lunchie!!!

b4 pizza was delivered, the 3 of us slept fer one whole hour while waiting....

end wif my office grp pp wif boss's best fren.......

boss - shanker, photographer.

boss best fren - alex.

that's daren, lashimee and mi!!!!

NIGHTMARE!!!!

2009-08-09T19:08:00.001+08:00

this is nightmare!!! seriously. the more i look at it, the more i feel like repulsed. pls, dun do anything more. ha

boring

2009-08-04T00:03:00.001+08:00

i am living a boring life which 1, no money and 2, time to haf happenings in my life.........

still fantasy

2009-07-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

here i am, sitting in the office of sph at 10.43am listening to jay's 3rd last album, still fantasy and playing solitaire. i have this feeling that i couldnt rid off. the whole album, will reminds mi of someone whom i once like. both of us like jay. we are climbers. we used to hang ard aft climbin. it was him who introduced mi to selegie's touhua. we often chat online and meet up. aft trainins, we would sometimes walk here and there. sharin his mp3 listening to songs while walking, chatting. i felt bliss at that time. and this album, happens to be out when we are being close together. so, the songs in the album will bring mi back to those memories. we have lost contact nw. or should i sae we nv contact any more. he have someone he likes nw and i have gotten over it. just that this album brings mi some memories.

SHE

2009-07-29T21:07:00.000+08:00

disclaimer: if you are readin this post, means you are damn bored right nw haha.

SHE.

There she was, sitting in her designated seat in her little office, also known as the server room. In the room, she was team up with D, the same age as her only months older and L, 4 years her senior. She is their source of laughter. They are not bullying her. Neither is they sneering at her. They are all playing together everyday.

Whenever she is alone, she wonders to herself. Why is she working so hard for. For money? But she doesn’t see any savings in her accounts and wonder where did all her money went when she kept working hard to earn. She wanted to save some money for studies and driving lessons but she’s afraid she couldn’t make it again.

Recently, she felt she still has the desire to study. Study her favourite business related course. She has a reserved place at RMIT Global SIM, Bachelor of Business Management. She is just afraid that she couldn’t be able to come out with the amount of school fees needed. She is also afraid this desire to study of hers will burn out, as there are still 5 months to her study term starts. 5 months, a lot of things can happen.

She will always have this quote, plans will never ever catch up with changes. She is afraid to plan. She doesn’t like disappointments. So in her life, she does not pin high hopes in the things she do. She wanted surprises. Surprises that will make her so elated that she could feel the bliss in her life.

In her heart, she longs for someone to care for her. But, she has the habit of appraising each of the guys that were close with her in her heart. She wanted to kick out that habit. And she realised that she hasn’t been doing that for quite sometime.

She likes her life to be fast paced, but not her personal time. She realised she likes to do things fast recently. Like during work, or for cashiering duties, she just want to be fast. She is not competing with anyone, but herself. She always challenges herself to be faster than before.

Last year, she felt she didn’t have a lot of close friends. Yes, she might have maybe 1000 acquaintances which some she probably have forgotten she once knew them. But among those 1000 acquaintances, she thought to herself who exactly is her close friends.

This year, she knows who are her close friends. She used to think her close friends wouldn’t add up to 10. She was wrong. It was more. She was being well liked by her close friends. She felt grateful to some of her friends because sometimes she would have a nasty attitude towards them. Those friends, is what she counted the dearest friends in her heart. Only to those, she will never be afraid to show her temper.

She looks cheery but there are times where she will be emo too. Especially when she is alone. Sometimes, she is so emo that she feels like crying, crying her heart out and have the comfort of someone dear beside her. That special someone that she longs. She controlled that emotion and depresses it further down in her heart and hope she could hold down that feeling longer. If can, till the time she found that that special someone to share everything with her.

She is lazy in nature. She is a contradiction herself. She likes cleanliness but she would be dirty due to her laziness. She can sleep with her laptop and bag at the foot of her bed. She can just dump everything on the sofa when she reached home and only turn the stuffs over in the sofa whenever she wanted to find her things. She can be so lazy that she cooked her instant noodles using 2 bowls and hot water. Reason she is lazy to wash the pot that will be used to cook the noodles. Only boiling of waters does not require washing and the only washing needed is the small little bowl and a fork. If she’s alone at home, her breakfast, lunch and diner will just be snacks and potato chips. Something which she often stocks up. She is just too lazy to get herself out of the house to get some proper meals, which is just right below her block.

She is someone whom she herself sometimes doesn’t even know herself. Like what she wants. Now she wonders will anyone else out there really know her that well?

Wonders.

Written by: Jocelyn Lim
Edited by: Mr Daren Ong

pon and missed =]

2009-07-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

i skipped work ytd. lazy to wake up. comfortably slpin till 1pm and awoke by my mum to eat lunch, mcd.

went to wrk today. daren and lashimee call mi miss chao geng haha. i gt a lot of names liao.. one more added today was glutton lim.

was being told that i'm being missed haha. wif my presence, it's nt that bored. cause, i am their source of entertainment. ha!

kamar. haha last time used to laugh at sally. nw i'm being laugh at. nvm. it shows that i am a fun person to be wif right? haha...

that ques is open to valerie, shirley, joyce, tingyin, steven, weizhen, sally, daren, lashimee, zoel, clive, wai fen, an jie, sikin, jun rong, deqiang blah blah blah haha.

wow

2009-07-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

titled wow.
author daren ong.
duration 20mins

this passage was about me and sneering at me. humph haha.

She sat there in the office: working with a face of blissfulness not from her work. The chocolate before her is no match for a glutton of her status. With one hand full of dark chocolates and another with chicken bryani, she resembles a warrior with a sword and shield in hand, ready to face any oncoming battle which in this case was her Achilles heels for food. During her work term, she swelled like a balloon. Even the elephant print of her shoes seems to have come alive and grown considerably in size as with time. How could a glutton like her used to be an Ah Lian? If she used to be an Ah Lian, then now she has become ten of her former self. One could not fathom the intensity of her eating speed. If properly measured, it could easily be 10times faster than the speed of the quickest F1 driver as of now. Like those Taiwanese drama, she aspired for herself to be slim and attractive but yet the more she want to do so, the more she find food attractive. Her bag is always charged with food. For food she lives and for food she dies. Do not ever disturb her. Her sheer weight is fatal. Unless confident, otherwise do not, I repeat, DO NOT PROVOKE HER.

lost

2009-07-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

i have lost myself.

nil

2009-07-23T22:23:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i felt tired... tired of living. nth seems meaningful. if i were dead tml. i have nth to regret fer nt doin yet. right nw, i am just living a day aft a day thinkin wat am i doin each day. nothing makes mi look forward to the future. i lost interest in everything. life too. wat am i living for?

like finally!!!

2009-07-18T15:37:00.002+08:00

yesh!!! i finally pass my btt aft the 2nd time. so happy. tot i will fail again coz, i nv study much again haha. only ytd browse through the signs and today half an hour b4 i'm out browse the road markings. so happy haha.

past happenings....

10 jul
met steven and tingyin to celebrate andy's bdae. he treated us eat philipine food. place at marina sq, 7101 flavours. go to my facebook and see wat we get him fer pressie ba haha. we get him briefs and requested him to wear on e spot!!! we are at level one of marina sq. steven was demanded to wear wif him too haha.

11 jul
met wh fer movie aft my work at cold storage. promise to treat my bro to watch ice age so i brought him along... but, i cannot make it in time if i were to go home and fetch my bro coz we check the timing le. so, i ask wh to go to my hse n fetch him instead haha. we couldnt get our hands on e tix fer 3D so we watched 2D instead. went to amk market to eat b4 e movie started.

15 jul
invited joyce, tingyin and steven over to my hse fer potluck. i provide crabs and they bring other foods to my hse. wao, the crabs coz 50 bucks. haha. joyce cooked tomato based spag and the sauce is she hand squeeze out frm e tomatoes haha. tingyin bought sushi frm ichiban sushi at amk hub and roasted pork frm the food court there. while steven, bought 2 cooked chicken frm shop and safe. well, food was too much. my mum cooked one big pot of sweet and sour soup, cereal prawn, and vege. crab was really lots. 9 crabs. black peppered. they hang ard till 12 plus then go home. nice and comfortable gathering.

16 jul
joyce, tingyin, steven and i met again. we meet to watch harry potter and the half blood prince.. movie was long. all of us sat uncomfortably. seat was small and so is the place fer our legs.. we were watchin at yishun gv. joyce drive mi home haha.

lazy

2009-07-08T23:10:00.004+08:00

last few days already wanted to blog. but juz plan lazy. oso 4gt wat to blog le. so, i'll juz blog this pic..

one of my guy. did i mention my small little office only consist of me, she and he???

this is he... haha she didn't come to work fer 2 days....

this shows how slack we are in the world of our own. play music, watch drama, read mag/newspaper, slp!! haha...

the key to those???? listen to footsteps!! haha of course juz need to recognise one and only one footstep we are to account to la...

that daren, nw i called him gu ren (骨人). we are gettin lamer wif each other nw... and, i like to use this word 敷衍 on him. sometimes we seems like 敷衍ing each other cause we juz haf nth better to do... nithiya wasn't at work fer half of e days i went. so, those 3 days only gu ren and i in e office. and lame is what we have become.

congrads

2009-07-04T03:12:00.002+08:00

congrads to my sister joyce fer passin tp!!!

psst... drive mi out to play when u gt car ok??? i'll make myself free to fer u. only u wor to play haha. so u wun be slackin at home. heihei

temp admin

2009-07-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

82 genting lane singapore 349567
singapore press holdings
circulation department level 2
temperature admin assistant.

today is my 1st day of work. 6 mths contract, till 31 dec.
pay little and so is work little.
no choice, but at least i haf a proper job fer 6mths...

tml i'll be bringin my little pillow to work haha. can slp fer like an hour durin break.
literally my 2nd home le.

in that little small office, there's only he, she and mi haha. 3 of us. world of our own.
we are situated away frm our boss. cool.
my job scope?? ans phone calls. and sometimes some paperwork.
aft 2pm, we will be starin at each other, nth to do much.

whaoh...

2009-07-01T00:07:00.002+08:00

today morn interview. i damn duno how to go.. spent so much time researchin how to go last night.

thx jun rong fer drivin mi there. appreciate lots. xie xie.
went hm play pet society play till wan slp sia... so tired.

cancelled meetin wif wh. timin nt gam. meet again when he book out.
received call in e afternoon say i gt selected fer e job le. i duno gt how many pp went fer interview but i saw 3 when i was there which includes mi too haha. so, i knew i win 2 pp haha. one frm tp de.

e interviewer say i hyperactive. he ask am i always so hyperactive. haha.. am i??? today clive oso sae i so active. shi meh?? interviewer oso sae i very useful haha. think this is wher i win the other 2? i noe alot of things. IT part and business part. i didn't put in resume or application form. juz durin e interview mention.

sign the contract this aft b4 goin cs fer work

9th

2009-06-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

watched 9th movie of the month!!! finally i break my own record le.

9th movie: drag me to hell.
i watched till no movies to watch le. just how i haf been avoidin to watch this movie. but watched in e end.

slept at 4am last night. morn, 9.30 that si ah beng mornin called mi.. lol so early.. didn't expect.

sleep in a bit more till he called the 2nd time sayin he comin le then i chop chop go bath. i was late haha.

accom him go modi his car. add led lights. then we went amk hub fer movie. went toa payoh to eat fer late lunch and went novena.. i haf to work today. so we walk ard b4 my work time starts.

8th movie

2009-06-29T00:24:00.002+08:00

watched The Taking Of Pelham 1 2 3 wif deqiang. 8th movie of the mth.
b4 movie, meet kevin fer dinner. ate kenny rogers at novena sq.
duno y today suddenly gt so many dates.

rejected ben fer movie cause i watched transformer le.
rejected steven fer dinner cause meetin kevin le.

wah quite alot of pp wanna watch transformer. ang wan mei if you are readin this, look. transformer nice hor haha.. if i were to go watch wif them, i would like be watchin 5 times lea....

watched wif zoel.
kevin wan to watch.
ben wan to watch.
deqiang wan to watch.
joyce wan to watch.

went shirley's bbq last night. long time no see. saw sarah, michelle, aili... long time no see man! haha. 1st time i manage to get myself there on my own through reserach online, the sbs web haha.

failed

2009-06-27T15:41:00.002+08:00

i failed bbt!! ho~~ haha.

retest again on 18 jul.

1st test fer tryin.
2nd test fer experience.
3rd test, muz pass..

i only gave myself 3 chances~~ haha.

chey

2009-06-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

went sci centre. treat mum, my bro n his fren go.. i am bored. see them run here and there. oso nv like really walk much.

i'll go again soon. fer da vinci the genius.!!! till 16 aug only.. sadly to sae.

tml is my small day... btt~~ e bk is yet register in my head yet... read but 4gotten haha.

update

2009-06-26T03:01:00.002+08:00

last post was like one week plus ago.

i haf already 4gotten some what did i do during that past week.

watched land of the lost wif joyce on 17 jun
watched monster vs aliens wif bro on 18 jun
watched ghost of girlfrens past wif joyce, tingyin, steven, zatd on 24 jun
watched transformer wif si ah beng juz nw

7 movies this mth le.

aft pc fair, work, slack, n went out sometimes.

meet joyce on 17 jun to sim lim sq to repair her lappy adapter head. she rat shit la haha. spent 2h there cannot find a shop to repair. when i reach, i juz anyhow point one shop and sae 'neh' and hurray!! objective done. movie, chat, walk and eat...

19, 20, 21 slack home all 3 days.. i suddenly had this crazy idea of takin a scroll at some natural places. like zoo, bird park, museum or wateva.. but i spent my days home watchin absolute bf instead. i even thought of want to ask who to accom mi go.. i juz wanna be wild and takin crazy snaps like a child. so that explains why i am suddenly so crazy these days... i felt kiddy suddenly.

21 jun celebrate papa dae.. juz a simple dinner at some zhe cha stall at sim lim. but i think is quite famous coz si ah beng saes he knows wher le aft i describe to him wher.

24 jun went fer job interview but didn't get interviewed in e end. guess i get e wrong hosp name. went hm online awhile again out. meet joyce, tingyin fer dinner at billy bombers then steven n zatd join us fer movie. i am damn lame and kiddy that night. i'm the kid frm the comin movie UP lol haha.

25 jun. meet uncle, char fer klunch. aft that, i went home online, watch tv bathed n meet si ah beng fer transformer. i am fascinated wif the roborts. esp the twins.. so cute. one of them in my new found fav colour. green. i ps deqiang this movie. u were too sudden. and i felt weird to mix u n si ah beng to watch together again although u haf done like so many times meetin mi n my frenz together in a grp. sorry.

tml, i will be doin a crazy thing. i will be bringin my bro n his fren to sci centre. fer no gd reason. i juz feel like haha. and best is, i am payin everything when i felt like broke haha.

pics~~~ lazy to upload yet.