-> a feeling

i suddenly have this feeling that soon, i'll be saying my bf buy for me de instead of saying my fren buy for me.

but, i just dont want things to go so fast. for a least, a few months ltr.


just dont want to end up having another wen xiu's kind or like my father's kind as a bf.

13:30

-> 骗

ruoning say 我要被他骗到了.
but I don't think there's any news coming.

I'm someone who likes 新鲜感. once e novelty period is gone, I wonder will I still be able to commit myself into it.

sometimes I wonder to myself. how do these couples out there can last so long.? there will be a time when u will run out of topics to communicate. there will be a time when u have already did everything together, and what's left for u to do so that it will remain as interesting as previous.

and when u are married, how do u maintain and hold this relationship?

till now, it's still e 'honeymoon' period. he's doing everything he can now to make me happy even though we are not even together. months ltr, will I be sian of it? months ltr, will I realize I have been too pampered by him and asking for more. months ltr, will I then realize that actually I don't like him but only enjoy being 捧在手心里的感觉. or maybe months ltr will I then realize 原来我只是那时无聊, 找他解闷而不小心触动了他的心.

希望现在的他别附出太多的心.不想以后因我而不小心伤害了他. 以后的事，很难说.

now, I only want to have fun and 还在摸索我的 wants, 我自己. this period now is my busy period, and also is my most vulnerable period.


他很好. 真的.

22:30