-> no more

I SHALL USE THE MONEY AND CABBED ALL MY LIFE INSTEAD.

i am not going to learn anymore. hehe. burden dropped whoo nice~~

one less burden to spend, more money for own spendings!!!

22:17

-> steamboat bbq

aft work, meet up with joyce 1st then head over to bugis to meet Denis and Kumar for steamboat. thier frens came too cos was an early bdae celebration for kumar. joyce and i felt out of place.

Kenny, Andy came and at least, i knew them. 9 of us in total. had a good meal, good chat and good laughs.

joyce left early due to night work while i stay on longer. i left when they were planning for next activity. nice get together although i am not even close to them before. i just happened to be popping in recently.

cheers~~

01:25

-> steven bdae celebration

sat, work at cs, cancelled tuition last min so meet joyce earlier.

reached earlier, walk ard. went to mango, my fav shop. bought again.
joyce came, we went to secret recipe, chop 5 tables for 10 seaters. settled cake surprise with "Happy SUPPLIES Steven!" wording and make it a surprise for him.

one by one came, we chatted, ate, joked, make fun of each other and embaress steven with the sudden cake 'supplies'!!! haha

peeps.... Steven, Joyce, Farhan, Kun Rong, Jeremy, Fadhli, Andy, Arif and me.

went out of vivo for a walk. the guys were like trying to make steven wet at the water area. finally caught him and held him down at the water splash point, but too bad, it was off. it's 10pm already.

catched movie, phobia 2. so while waiting for the movie to start, we went lvl 3 to lepak. the guys bought jim beam and coke. we drank, and ah long still cant give up the idea of getting stev wet. chase him again, wanted to throw him into that little pool of water.

went timezone to kill time. with only $9 credit, we play like crazy. cant topup coz cashier closed. played throw balls game. ah long was so high till he search the bin for things to throw. he threw water bottle that was found in the bin.

played 7 men ddr with 2 players. they are like trying to dismantle the machine i tell u. haha videos will be uploaded at my facebook soon.

played 9 men and women parapara with each a 10s's turn. check out my facebook for the videos. everyone looks funny while dancing.

all sweaty went movie. most was scared. for me, aft the 2nd story i dun feel like watching it anymore. I JUST DONT LIKE GORE MOVIES!! felt so bloody disgusted off and pain for them. eww!

01:00

-> steamboat

host steamboat at my hse.
invites to joyce, steven and tingyin.

gave money $200 to go buy and prepare the foods. i bought some more myself. so i guess i spent like $250.

i am tired for not getting enough sleeps. but the most tired person of all is my mom. she have been preparing everything herself the whole day. love you mom.

was so tired till didnt eat much. even putting in the food to my mouth and chew felt so lazy.

choc fondue with fruits as desserts. fruit list - green apple, strawberry, grape, banana, kiwi, guava. bought mashmallows too but forget to open.

got a new rumoured bf. but seriously, i did not do anything. just doing what my job needs to do.

01:17

-> the ugly truth seeked

finally i watched the ugly truth. it wasnt with zoel. and i bet anyone who is reading this right would would have guessed it correct.

I WATCHED WITH DENIS!!! haha. first time out with him.

satisfied for the watching the movie i wanted to watch. but, i got more movies i wanted to watch haha.

00:40

-> first time

first time to pub last night.

aft work, went dinner with franz and denise frm sph. vegetarian fer dinner. then head down to chinatown, a gay pub fer drinks. never been to singapore clubs and pubs b4. only been once to kl's pub last year.

we chatted, i knew more about them. they knew mine too. whatever things i am surprise to know about shall be kept there.

11:25

-> work.

the working days just continues.. with diff working environment. like i am playing everywhere i work. which, sometimes feels tired. needed lots of energy. to be active, high, entertaining while working.

therefore whenever i am left alone, i just want the world to be me only. shut myself to everything.

alone in the office, listen to music n work.
alone at home, stay in bed all day and online.
alone while traveling, listen to music and stone.
alone while waiting, listen to music and observe pp walking by.

alone, is sometimes i much prefered. it doesnt take much energy, i can do whatever things i like at my own time own target.

i have been dreaming lately of how i wanted my home to be. an apartment at one of the newly built condos, with sea blue as my wall paint. low lights for the house to create the nice ambience. with sometimes, i will light candles, essence oil. with my laziness, i will not be cooking and doing housework. but, i will hire a part time maid. 3 times a week. and once every 3 mths, i will get the cleaning company to have my hse wipe out clean!! haha.

my house will not have a lot of stuffs. because, i will have the tenancy to throw stuffs if i didn't use it fer like months. i have this thinking where nvm , throw already next time still need then buy again lor.

and so this is how i think my money is going out more than how i wanted to save.

i want to own a hse of mine!!!!

16:22

-> the long wkn.

this wkn was long for a rest, but ut doesn't applies to me. i have been working for this loong wkn.

i guess i am really a stupid woman. like wat peggy says. i waited 3hrs for si ah beng to finish work for movie. waited at cold storage. this is how i ended up waiting.

at 11am sph, i recieved call frm auntie lilian asking me to go work frm 7pm to 10.30pm. was rejecting initially but lost to her haha.

went cold storage straight. slept on e bus. reached, saw miss mary. then i knew i dont need to work anymore. peggy msg mi at 6.15pm but i was too busy to be asleep and miss it. this is how i waited 3h coz tot i am working till closing with zoel so ask him wanna catch a movie not aft work. nv work, so wait lor instead of goin hm coz i confirm will feel sian to come out again.

bought my long waited 5th book frm DAN BROWN!! The Lost Symbol. while waiting, i read the book. but i didnt have the mood coz i dont like e feeling of readin book now when i haven pass my ftt. it's like the book will forever be stopped halfway. i like to read it in one shot but i still need to force myself to at least study somemore. the temptation of reading is so great lol. my iweeky have been left upopen fer the past 3 weeks. tml s the 4th issue that i cant read yet.

ok, back to e wkn.
although i am working throughout the wkns, i am fine with it. this wkn, the timings all sounds good. working with zoel, sanda, miao, ah peng are my favs. coz i'll be talking soooooo much haha. for this, i must control haha cannot always show myself laughing out loud. shhh

sat, waited for si ah beng.
ytd, waited for him again. fer 3h again. i end at 6.30pm, while he at 10pm again. went orchard walk walk while waiting. back with dunking donuts. treat sanda, si ah beng, miao, peggy, florence. trained wif him to his hse to pick his car. waited for him downstair while he change. the girl he liked called. ask him go home wait fer her call. what can i do?? tell him i go home lor. he said mayb watch the 1am plus de aft the call come find me. he showed mi the way home but i ended up cabbing home coz i duno i walked till where le. only know i cab at orchird park condo.

homed, bathed n online. 1am plus then say no movie le ba.
felt stupid. but at least now i knew i didnt like him as what i tot i am ba. i dun feel sad though while walking. felt nth juz felt stupid.

today we are standing in the same counter again. just like past, playin and sneering at each other. waited fer him again coz he drove and say can send mi home. we didnt talk much on the way home. coz i dont know what to talk.

14:36

->

Friends I am hanging out/contacting with recently….

Joyce – most frequent confidant, sister, indispensable 4
Ting Yin – indispensable 4
Steven – indispensable 4

Wei Zhen – sister
Sally – mummy

Daren – sph work mate, play mate
Franz – sph work mate, play mate
Lashimee – sph work mate, chat mate

Deqiang – mate who cares for me
Kevin – first ex but we are still hanging out frequently
Wei Hao – movie mate

Zoel – cold storage si ah beng, talk crap mate

Alex – sph

17:25

-> ot

dq sent me to work this morn. need to reach by 8am so ask him to sent me since he is working near me and at 8am too.

lunched with franz and gang. b4 that, i napped an hour with at times startled by calls or noises fearing boss is coming.

initial plan was climb. climb with denis and e seniors. ended up doin ot. not bad though. i could surf net, with no one online to chat with at that hour. ha.

homed with boss and his best fren, alex. alex sent me back. i was sitting in the passenger seat. while boss, shanker sat behind. i felt awkward that shanker sat behind. but well, coz he alight first so say i sit in front.

on e way back, alex and i chatted a bit.

meet up wif sally n wei zhen fer dinner. while mom will be away for a week so i'll be like alone although dad is around cause i will be quite busy this week to be alone.

00:45

-> I am not talking.

This, written during work at 10am this morning.

Because I don’t feel like talking.
Now, I feel like taking the rest of the day off and left him alone. Ha.
So tired. Feel like sleeping.

Joyce keep asking me to give dq a chance. Saying not many people can after so many years still have feelings for the other de. I don’t know. But I think maybe one day I will really give in and stop putting on the I am strong although I am single.

Now, I still like being alone. I can meet anyone as and I like. I can do whatever things I like. I have more time to myself to be emo. Now, I quite like to do things on my own. Shop.

Dq sent me to work today. Needed to reach by 8am so ask him whether can send me here or not as he works around here and start at 8am too. He lived a Hougang, biked to AMK to fetch me and to Aljunied.

Climbing later and I don’t think I can climb that much. Finally sick. I will not be bothered to take any care. Just hope tomorrow will not have fever so that I still can go skin centre easily.

Tomorrow taking final theory again. After like one month. Seriously, I lost the interest in getting the license. Force myself to read yesterday and I don’t feel like reading any more after a bit. If tomorrow fail, I think I will just end it as what it is. Unless, the desire to learn is here again.

Oops, I think I am emo yet again.

23:57

-> my shopping list

Yoga pants
Sports bra
Blouse
Shorts
Jeans
Pumps
Sling bag
Training shoe

01:13

-> indispensable 4 -1 kl trip

Prologue…
A 2 days 2 nights trip to KL, with one day’s activity at Genting. The peeps are Joyce, Steven and I. Indispensable 4 minus 1. Ting Yin couldn’t make it due to her violin lessons. The trip started from Friday night, 04.09.09 to Sunday night 06.09.09.

7.15pm, I meet up with Joyce and her naughty boy, Zatd. Wait and wait for that Steven.
Bid farewell to Zatd and the journey started!! Public bused to Johor Larkin then we purchase bus tickets to KL. Bought from the wrong bus company. The bus keeps stopping for very long. We ended up reaching our hostel at 3am for a 9pm bus. The bus also never starts on time. I slept almost all the way. Both Steven and Joyce said it is amazing that I could actually sleep on that ride when they couldn’t. Sleep and wake, wake and sleep are what they are doing on the ride.

Bathed and all, 4am plus all of us are lying on the bed. With Joyce on my right and Steven on my left. The single and double beds put together. We are back to the hostel we last went last year. It was Fad that gang’s room. Steven forbid us to sleep say we should stay awake till morn cause we will be waking up early too for Genting. But all of fall asleep afterall with Joyce the first.

7am Joyce’s alarm went off. She went to shower then Steven. I only woke up when Steven went showering haha. Shower, dressed, off we went to Puduraya to purchase bus tickets back to Singapore for the next day. Bought bus cum cable car tickets to Genting. On the bus way up to the cable car station, the car broke down. Engine overheated. Stranded at the roadside for like half an hour before we could carry on the trip up. Camwhore.

All of us were damn famished. My last proper meal was on Friday lunch, then a slice of cake at 5pm. It was already 12noon and we haven hate breakfast yet.

We settled at Ah Yat Abalone for a hearty Dim Sum brunch. After that heavy brunch, Steven insisted we go theme park and play space shot right away. Joyce and I keep refusing cause we just ate so much. We are afraid our stomach can’t take it. In the end, we went for pirate ship for the first ride. Joyce and my worries put to a stop after the ride. Haha suddenly the food felt disappeared half in the stomach. Went on with other rides including space shot and the ride where it start our team. Corkscrew!! We sat twice for that ride. The ride improved and I like the thrill of the twisted screw turn that made us went upside down.

Steven was so restless that we went for dinner at 6pm, pizzahut. Stuffed crust pizza as he wanted, with waffle fries, lasagna, sweet and spicy wings and drinks.

Cable car down and we are surrounded by the mist. Videos and pictures are in my facebook. I keep having the pressure in my ear that at one time, I almost couldn’t hear what I am talking. Like last time, my ears kept having the blocks for very very very long.

Petaling street up next. Actually I wanted to buy so many things but decided not. Decided to buy the originals in Sinapore instead. We head back hostel early that night all was tired. Bathed, talk a while and zzz.

Sun,, I was the first to wake up to bath cause I am very slow. We packed, checked out and prata for breakfast. Train to the nearest train station then cab to One Utama to climb at camp 5. Only climbed high walls as we don’t have enough time to hang around there. Did a few coloured routes, tried crack wall for the first like finally after 3 times there and I am back into climbing!! Chop chop bathed, da bao A&W then cab to Puduraya for bus home. Shared cab with Steven back home.

00:42

-> funny.

funny how the room seems.
funny how when each people looked while walking into the room today
funny how different department people will come in today
funny how the awkward the situation looks when the room is silence.

in this server room that belongs to lashimee, daren and idaren was off. so left the girls.
franz was here, next uncle yeo, then doreen, and kok soon.
suddenly, the small little room was filled with so many people. how badly i wanted to laugh at seeing their expressions on the faces.
with the 'ay, why got so many people here.'

today i made 2 new frenz. ben and simon
had lunch with a grp of pp
franz, alex, guang yuan, uncle michael, ben, simon

00:38

-> 9 months

9 months since i climbed and....
it's a year that i have been remained single..!! haha

climbed at climb asia, farrer park then tau huay. the usuals.

climbed with my eye candy senior haha...

the fingers pain are back, which i kind of miss it.
and the muscles are growing again. gosh. i hate that.

dun haf the strength to climb much but it doesn't matter any more. i am not into competitive climbing. leisure climb is what i am into now. get around with my old climbing frenz and chats is wat i enjoyed now and i miss the feelin of climbin pains. but not the blisters though ha!

01:36