-> a little update

past few days, i screw myself up. great. caught in up in things inbetween. need confirmation b4 i can settle the other thing. but the other thing cannot wait that long fer confirmation. in e end, both gone. i hate that days. makes mi damn no mood. keep thinkin bout it. lose appetite, cannot slp at night, n deep into thoughts.

forget it. over le. i shall start all over again.
nw, my 思考能力 isn't functioning. haf been doin some things that i think is stupid. anyhow spent money when i need to save nw. nt thinkin logically. even givin directions to zoel to my hse oso gt prob haha.

zhen, i guess u are wonderin who is zoel ba. someone frm cs. i call him si(死) ah beng.

ya, ytd aft work he sent mi home. he drive.
then, i was told by that playboy (clive) that i 玩出火. hell, when???? in cs, e only one that i play wif much is him liao.

was told that the store's Loss Prevention Officer aziz was interested in mi. i didn't care much as that was clive's say. nt aziz. a couple of days ago, when i am being bothered by things, playboy msg mi sayin lpo wanted my no. playboy nv give him. playboy gave mi lpo's no instead. i juz chunk it one side n nv care. slowly accepting cross culture rs. but nt nw haha... ah moh bf best haha. i wan to go europe!!! (random?? haha)

cs is just too familiar wif mi le. bullied, cared, play, laughed, bickered playfully.
i had lots n lots of names there.
ah lian, si ah lian, sotong, 小坏蛋, 边缘少女, 女儿, 妹妹, 小妹, blah blah... the list still goes on i believe.

01:37

-> swim + tan

finally i get to touch cum play water!!
mate = wei zhen aka sis.
some shots that i like. more on facebook!!
2 cams, all photos tagged by me fyi btw.
tada~~

18:04

-> 21.05.09 kbox

jun rong and i

i snapped!

decent shot

me

farewell kbox.

01:53

-> angels and demons

like so finally.

e long awaited movie i wanted to watch aft da vinci code.
actually i haf already read e book like 2 years ago. i just so like dan brown's novels.
i wonder if he is coming out his 5th book anot.
speaking of which, i haf an urge to borrow a book. i am readin dean koontz's books too. another author.

angels n demons watched wif jr. i am watchin with a little smirk as i knew e plot. poor jr, duno anything bout it, hungry and munchin on popcorns to stuff e hunger. with wat i read, everything seems e same frm e book. suddenly, e book came alive in front on e big screen.

juz how random jr and i can be. we agree to watch movie at 9pm where it is startin at 9.50pm. aft movie. was home. car was expected to stop beside my hse bus stop. but it didnt stop. we went chomp chomp to eat instead. how sudden. to add on, we nearly went to cine fer kbox at 1pm plus.

now, i am waitin fer producers to produce 2 other movies frm dan brown's books too.
the deception.
digital fortress.

oh, while writing this blog, i am wiki-ing dan brown too. he wrote his 5th novel. the lost symbol. only at september 15 this year. i am gonna get it!

02:40

-> mix

16.05.09 Jia Ping birthday celebration.

5A

5B

10.05.09 Mother's day celebration
venue - Ang Mo Kio Jack's Place
peeps - Dad, Mum, Mi, Wen Xiu, Wen Hui, Wen Hua

my family

Good news.
juz when i have decided to find full time to work days ago, and today tell yi jing i haven get any replies frm sim when she gt hers, i receive the letter when i open my letterbox at 12am plus.
when i took e letter, e envelope look diff. diff frm e reject letter of ntu's.

so, i gt a reserve place in e 2.5years bachelor of business (management) awarded from rmit university. it's a 2010 jan intake as there is no more place fer jul intake. i have decided to take up the place while ponderin as i bath.

can idle till end of e year le. need to replan what to do fer these 6 mths le.

02:56

-> playground

i am given a playground, to learn frm stretch as well as to work.

chance given. to switch frm part time to full time. at e same time, learn the traits of a chief cashier. boss sae if i were to change frm part time to full time, i can learn frm tina on what a chief cashier do. when there is a new store openin, she will help mi to apply fer e post of chief cashier. in this way, at least i noe what to do as i have experience already. she ask mi to consider and sae if i dun wan to work as full time anymore, i can change back to part time any time. take this full time to learn something as pp work employ someone who dun haf any experience and let them learn frm stretch while working.

e pay wasnt alot. nt even to 1000 fer a full time cashier at cold storage. 900++ i wonder if i shld work try and work full time to try???

if i were, i will have to forfeit my time. how???

02:10

-> 好累

咳。最近不知怎么的。我比较早睡了，虽然这几天都要八点半起生去补习，一有时间的话，我都会抓紧时间睡个午觉。这几天是小学的考试时期，所以补习的时间就比较多。早上补，下午补。和晚上做工。虽说这三分“工”只是几个小时，一个半小时的补习和四个小时的工。可是，每晚回家都感到好累好累啊。

一望无际的将来，
毫无目的。
过着一个得过且过，活在一无是处的日子里。

生活的乐趣是什么了呢？
我已经不知道我自己要的是什么了。
心已麻木了，对好多东西都已无感觉了。
放弃了以前的最爱，攀岩。
不再奢望能有个男友了。
习惯了自己和自己的生活，活在自己的世界里。
以自我为中心，不管其他人。

朋友，我主动约已主动累了。
主动，我累了。

听着悲伤的歌。心情也没漂亮到哪儿去。
因此，这着部落搁的字笔也都变得很忧伤了。

不过，好久没用华文来写了。
这着能用上几句成语来表达我的感想，感到骄傲。！

Labels: 累了

00:09

-> dilemma

i'm faced with dilemma, choices.

actually, i'm thrown by this dilemma on mon evening, when i went to work. but fer e past 2 days i havent been workin so i didnt think much bout it. today, dilemma hit mi in e face again.

i have a job offer. i can take up either e post of section leader, supervisor, department manager or chief cashier (tina's post if you are readin this val.) yes, all those job designation are from cold storage.

i have my worries though. admit that i am not strict. nt to the outside world, my friends, the people i knew outside. i dun wan to look unapproachable.

if i were to be one of those posts, i duno what change i would have. there will be a change in me.
if i were to be one of those posts, would i be respected, would my instructions be followed??? there are so many people ard there who have worked longer than me, age older than mi. i'm just a someone who is only 20, nt even 21 yet.
if i were to be one of those posts, my i be able to cope with e load? i know how much is e load. i am nt confident. with my blurness and how muddle can i be at times.

BUT,

i wish i could try and gain some experiences.
i wish i could try and know some things frm this area in the industry

i duno wat i wan. i am flicker minded. i am afraid i am juz into this fer this moment of time only and aft a few days, i will change my mind. juz like how i say i wan to learn drivin frm like 4 mths ago, i will send resume like a month ago.

laziness. is the word that is very very stuck with mi at this time. i am juz lazy to do everything right nw. i am afraid it's juz a 3 min adrenaline feel.

but, i wish to try new things.

you will grow frm tryin because you have learnt something out of the tries. you can nv move on because you will be forever stuck there as you have learnt nothing new.

03:42

-> to valerie

this post is delicated to valerie bay rui ling...

haa i bet u will laugh aft readin this post.
guess who i served while workin at cs???

ANTHONY IAN RUSSEL!!!!

omg, i can already imagine u laughin your heads off at the sight of that name.
he was at my counter queuing. till he was next to be in the line, then i recognise him.
i was like oh shit.!

we talked a little only. want to know wat he bought? meji 2 liter milk.
his company was a guy. the guy paid fer e milk. if i rmb correctly, he carried the milk.

are you thinkin wat i am thinkin nw?? haa.... tag!!! haa

00:12

-> 30.04.09 Corkscrew Night Cycling

13:23