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Saturday, August 23, 2008

-> lazy
an entry that i wanted to blog fer sometimes but plain lazy. a few things.

run
have been running recently, totally have no idea what i am running for. have thought of 2 reasons but dun exactly know which.
-trainin fer nike human race
-running fer losing weight

him
things between us have been cold recently. we haven met fer a week. was lookin forward to go climbin wif him durin trainins but i am alone always. esp ytd, knew he will go gymmin b4 climb and i could go earlier a bit to accompany him to wait fer trainin. but because of rain, he went back. i'm disappointed.

we still haven chat on the phone b4. one more week or so, it's a month. fer nw, i dun feel secure. the sense of belongin is nt there. that day, the neglection, i said nvm. but the fact is, i do mind a bit. i kept thinkin and wondering why the sudden different feel. i wanted to know why the neglection but i nv asked. my fault too fer keeping things to myself.

these few days, haf been thinkin alot. bout us. sorry but to say are we really made fer each other? or do we really need to work hard to make this work. thinking back, i am back to the issue when we watched the 2nd movie. do we really noe each other well? are we in a rs too fast. or am i agreeing to his confessions so fast that i nv really think bout wat will happen later.

i'm nt comparing, i noe each couple have each of their own happiness. wher's ours? i duno. i saw that in his fren michelle's and joyce's and my fren, joyce's, karnita's and sally's. i have yet to see mine. the only time i felt happy is when we just started out, all his sweet talkings. but nw i felt nothing cause we have lesser chats.

i'm sorry i'm complaining.

15:17

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Jocelyn
 Xiao Ke Ai, Sotong
 01.12.1988
 jaunty_jocelyn@hotmail.com
 Republic Poly
 Lazy, Rock climber, Blur

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