-> i need to change

day 1, camp started. i am nervous standin by e side to wait fer e class being allocated to us. i stand till my legs are achin, i am a bit shakin as time ticks by and i still dun really haf e whole idea of how shld i do. i depend a lot a lot on my mirror. he is doin e commands(because this camp is sort of like a millitary camp fer e kids to feel how it's like in army and wif learning pts.)

camp started, i didn't talk much to e kids because i always had difficulty in presentin in front of others. e words i wanted to sae will always get stuck in my throat and i am jam there. this is one of e weakness i wan to change and i MUST.

tis camp, i really found out a lot of things that i should change. not only should i 'coach' them of how to be positive, even mi myself shld be too. there are times when i am negetive of the camp and want to give up but i drop e idea any how.

i mus be REALLY active coz i am really very quiet. nw i noe, no matter good or bad things, i MUST really raise it out, speak it out and nt keep it wif myself. i MUST be fierce too coz i am nt able to convince people to do things.

i myself must do things myself and not depend on my mirror to burden him. i MUST kick off the habit of askin him is it ok to tell the kids this and that when i wan to sae instrustions.

tis are some of the pts i found when i am doin tis camp and i MUST DO MY BEST to improve these b4 i do e next camp.

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