-> Sit freshies camp 08

3days 2 nights camp, made a lot of new frens and enjoy myself too. Knew what are e things I need to improve on frm e previous camp so I do my best to improve it in this camp. I speak up more this time and interact more wif e students this time round. Partner wif ryan and lewis wif e team of 12 campers and later left 9. 3 leaders in a team is quite a lot ba I shld sae so my participation wasn’t dat much as e activities needed more MAN power..? hee..

I ask some of my campers fer opinion of how I perform as a leader and they sae i didn’t do till very bad. Yes, I still need improvements. Haa. Hazree helped mi too as he made mi recall e camp I had wif e yusoffians and what are e things I learnt frm my mirror azmail to put it in use. Cheer them on, motivate them, speak to them and open up.

I noe, to some campers, I neglected them so I do my best to make it up by mixin up wif those that I have neglected. I’m glad it’s nt too late fer e last dae of camp as we enjoyed ourselves.

3 campers left us early on e 2nd night and I’m glad that didn’t make e team’s participation level drop. They came up wif e cheer, e moves wif some help frm us too la haa.

1st dae of camp was in sch, playin telematch. All participate well and we as leaders are glad that we had dis team as they didn’t gave us problems like lack of communication, lack of participation. In fact, they are engaging in all e activities we played listen to instructions. We play many games and I took down e video of them playin e watermelon station where they need to break e watermelon into pieces as a team and eat up all e watermelon. Then, piece up all e skin together wif maskin tape. It’s so funny seein them do that.

2nd dae was outdoor in e sun at sentosa playin amazing race. All of us were tanned. Haa I like. I’m more tanned liao woohoo. I’m tis time my tan is obvious liao hor. Another butterfly tan? I’m nt sure hee. Sentosa was fun fer mi as we get to play luge n ride e skyride fer free haa. Nice ride. A funny incident happened while we are at e skyride though. dashini drop her slippers there. To make matters worse, it happened juz right aft ryan stop his sentence. He said, 如果有人的托鞋掉的话，我真的没有话讲。(if someone’s slipper drop hor, I really duno wat to sae.) aft his sentence, it juz drop in front of us. Ryan, arron lye, ji hao n I sat together while dashini and gold in front of us. All of us laugh out loud and that was e joke of our dae. Dat dae, 2 campers frm my team gt slippers snapped and a fallen slipper.

Last dae was water dae and all of us were in e pool except fer lee ting and mei yean as they can’t go in. we play tag of war in e pool and won e 1st round but lost at e 2nd round. Pool activity was fun as everyone keep throwin pp down e pool. It’s especially funny to see pp drop into e pool again when they have just come up.

Cheer was something we were lookin forward to ba as our cheer is innovative. Our team name call cheeky cha and we form e letters out usin e game chop chili chop. Instead of sayin chop chili chop chili chop chop chop, we change it to cha cheeky cha cheeky cha cha cha. Till everyone get get respective letter than we will add on wif e ‘oh when my team, goes marchin in, oh when my team goes marchin in. we got e balls to beat e others, oh when my team goes marchin in. oh hey.’ And lastly, our cheeky cha dance wif e 3 of us leaders too.


shawn augustine

shop name group photo fer e 1st station

skyride scenary

luge frm skyride view

group photo at vivo

party night group photo

last dae group photo

23:06

-> name

Ytd just got some photos from my last camp 3e4 co form teacher. Seeing e photo brings mi some memories and I realize that I really haf a bad memory fer names. Some names I have 4gotten and fer dis camp, it’s till e 2 dae then I rmb everyone’s name. I’m just so bad at names haa. Even some of e leaders name I still duno lol.


3e4

3e4 informal shot

last goodbye wif e gers


Juz nw Jessica and jovi came to e shop. Jessica came 1st and left then jovi came again. e 1st thing she sae when she step in is ask why am I so tan haa. We chatted and she sae I slim down le woohoo so happy haa. We oso chat till she sae I work here almost 3 years liao and how time flies haa. We show off each other’s new fon too. hee

22:53

-> ytd was tired

was feelin tired even though i juz sat there watchin pp climb. wake up at 0900 in e morn to go fer a math tuition fer 2h. i's juz once a wk n it's my 1st class. p6 math.. oh man, suddenly then i realise it's been long since i do math le.. there's simple algebra, volume, simple geometry blah blah. wah, nw p6 learn algebra n geometry liao.. still rmb last time i sec 1 then touch on algebra n sec 3 on geometry lol. long time nv do liao.. a bit 4gt how to do and i need time to think.! haa dis few daes muz go read up to recap liao.

went to support zayd fer novice man's finals. he gt 4th.. happy fer him. ting ting was in e finals too fer intemediate cat n she gt 3rd. our coach, beatrix was in e finals too fer open cat. she gt 1st.! woohoo. 6 routes, she complete 5 n flashed 4 of it. so superb.

watchin pp climb ytd spur mi to climb but watchin fer too long makes mi feel tired n sleepy coz it's a long wait fer e event to finish and change to other cat to climb. esp fer e open's cat, it's an diff way fer climbers to approach e wall n it's way longer. so, of coz i keep fidgetin during e climb was goin on.. i need to change e way to sit every 5 or 10min coz i butt pain haa.

in e end, i left w/o watchin e last event, men's open cat to climb.

12:48

-> boulderactive

hmmms, ytd was my comp fer boulderactive i did well? i duno. if i'm nt wrong, last year's boulderactive i think i am in e late 20 plus positions of 40 plus peeps. but tis year, i'm in e 35th position out of 56 peeps. of 4 routes, i only managed to complete one route (the balancy route) aft 3 tries.

can sae 1st 3 routes i couldn't think man. i couldn't think of ways to climb and i'm wasting my tries. my on site wasn't gd so i took more tries. but e tries i took oso nv progress tiles of climb.

1st route, i only can go till e 2nd tile fer all e tries. really can't think. only when i am restin goin fer e next route, then i tot of how. man. i jus need more time. but too bad, it's only given 3min per route n 3min to rest.

2nd route also only can reach till e 3rd tile. fer e tries i tried, i only managed till there coz e 4th tile need to jump fer it and i always slip at that.

3rd route, tis is e route i only managed to finished of all. it took mi 3 tries. e 1st try, i lost my balance and fall. e 2nd try, i start wif my hand facin e other way and there's no way i can shift or change my hand as it's a balancy route. then e 3rd try, i did it but i spent quite some time doin it. i am thankful to e route judge fer that route coz she helps. how she helps? she's motivatin, cheer mi on, and keep mi i still help time to go on and dun give up. her words, make mi go on n dun wish to give up. and it's that time, then suddenly i can tink. haa. she ask mi to look around and think. and finally i thought of how to do it. when i finished, i am very tired already. so tired till i cant stand properly so i straight away go fer e chair to sit. i 4gt to sae thank u to her and nv even look at her aft i finished. i feel so grateful to her.

last route, need to dyno coz i'm short haa. it's a roof handle fer a 2nd tile. 1st jump, no confidence. touch n drop. 2nd jump, gt confidence already but i duno why i only put in 4 fingers instead of all 5. so slip lor. 3rd jump. finally managed to hold e handle. move on to e 3rd tile and while goin fer e 4th, need to jump again fer it. couldnt reach so fall. and my 3mins ended fer dat route so is e comp fer mi in e individual novice category.

at night, i climb again. it's fer e team event. team wif steven, syafie, fadhli, zayd and ting ting. i'm e worst climber over there so they ask to take e hardest route as a techque. so that those easy ones they do have e possiblity of finishing. 6 of us each climb one route together and steven, ting ting and fad managed to finish their routes. we gt third fer dis category.

fer e team event, i only can touch 2 tiles no matter how many times i try. and after e whole thing, i'm thinkin without mi, could they get a better placing if joyce or ting yin was in their team?

14:01

-> temptations

oh my god..! i'm workin at sq 2 de outlet today till 1830. there's so much temptations fer mi here! it's those foods ard here are tempting mi to buy them. i heard all callin mi to buy them, buy them to eat. jus so much.

ther's old chang kee, shi lin, donut factory, kfc, long john, burger king, moss burger, ntuc, cold storage blah blah. haiz.. in front of my shop is anderson ice cream liao lol.. luckily i'm nt tempted to that today haa.

it's been long since i come tis outlet work liao. i still jessica ask mi which outlet i prefer to work in. i said sq 2 and she knew e reason right away haa. she sae of course la here gt alot of junkies u always eat.

like juz nw, i tell myself today can't eat fast food coz ytd ate long john n mac fer lunch n dinner. today muz eat proper meal. but, i pass by donut fac n bought 2 donuts haa. walk past old chang kee wanna buy too but i stop myself. i tell myself i can't buy so many things to eat if nt i will be a fat woman haa.

i bought rice fer lunch n finished e 2 donuts that i planned to maybe haf it as snacks durin tea time haa. oh mine, i really believe my appetite is back. ate so much these daes and never really work out so much.

sittin right here nw still tempts mi to buy those junkies out there. so jocelyn, please control yourself and beware of turnin fat! CONTROL...!

13:45

-> dad's bdae

celebrate dad's bdae at cine de kbox. went fer k buffet but we were late. wasted 2h. so only sang der a while and i haven had my fill of singin yet.! i wanna sing MORE. haa can't wait fer val to go sing. but do i haf time to go sing? i duno but i noe i will always make time fer wat i wanted hee.

as fer e buffet, i guess i ate alot? i duno coz i didn't see wat i'm eatin ba.. i sang e most and i'm like holdin e food in my mouth and sing haa. i really miss kboxin very bad hee.. i had no choice but to eat alot coz i order too much chicken steak. haa greedy? i duno coz i tot my family will eat as they eat more than mi ma. but i'm wrong haa.

tml's e so call big dae fer mi. coz i will be havin rock climbin competition. i'm nervous. am i ready and prepared? i dun think so coz my climbin sucks. i'm in one of e team and i am scare i will affect them as a whole. haiz.. but no matter wat, tml i muz instill my brain. "i cannot give up." "i muz do my best and nt try my best." "even if blisters come again, continue climb. after comp then sae." "finger pain oso continue. after comp then sae." "recover fast fer e next climb." "think of ways n techniques to climb." "plan e route well" "FLASH IT!"

rite nw, e fingers and e blister are my worries fer tml. i'm afraid my fingers can't take it any more as tis time, e injury on e fingers are worst than b4 and it hasn't gt any better since tue. although e blister is recoverin, but i am scare that e blister will open up again and it will hinder my climb as blister pain is worst than fingers pain fer mi.

haiz, hope there's miracle fer mi tml.. wish mi luck.

00:41

-> worn out (a no link entry i guess)

i guess today is e really e dae my physical n mentally break down. aiya, oso duno wat am i tokin todae like everything i sae is no link de. like rite nw i am tokin to uncle, he ask mi things e replies i gave like no link de haa...

really tired out le ba today actually wanted to go fer last climb b4 comp on fri. but, cannot wake up. snoozin e alarm haf been my bad habit these daes.. i can snooze fer e whole 2h lol haa. set alarm at 0945 but in e end wake up at 1245. in e middle, joyce oso sms to get mi up. reply her a few msg and i am still a pig slpin. while slpin, jessica also sms mi askin mi can work ma. i rejected thinkin i will go climbin but both oso nv go.

e only thing i did todae was took an hour travel to vivo to service my fon, hang ard there less than 10 min n i took another hour to travel back. so wu liao rite. went ther pass them fon only n i dun haf a fon fer 2 daes. haiz.

tuition today was a bit cork up too. started quite ok till i as li ling can change tuition frm sat to sun ma she sae she can n ask mi tok to her mum. when i ask her mum, her mum was fierce to her coz she sae dun wan la as she gt math tuition on sun so stick to sat. phew, dat situation was tense coz i duno wat to sae n i can see frm li ling that she was near to tears.

22:35

->

oh ya, juz nw complain bout my pain nv blog bout how i climb today.

able to finish a few routes given n i am quite happy. it's only e finger pain n blister hinderin mi frm climbin more.. tml goin to climb e last time b4 comp and i mus really take care of myself climbin tml. if nt i will be disappointed if i can't perform well durin comp on fri.

rock climbing competition held at outside ps open space on fri, sat n sun

23:13

-> trainin

my dear fingers, spicy palm... are so so so in pain.! e fingers i can still stand e pain coz it's an old injury frm climbin. but wat i hated to be 'injured' is to haf blisters. omg. it's so pain la. gt it jus aft a few climbs. still wanna climb n train to i went to put plasters n tape it up. haa ting yin sae i am very exgerate in e tapin of e blister haa. no choice coz i still wanna climb and e blister is at e palm hard to tape too ma.

nt only i gt e blister, karnita n ting yin gt it too ltr. haizz so pain esp when bathin zzzzzzzzz. took so long to bath. blister faster faster heal so i can go fer comp wif an ease mind pls......

i gt 10 fingers, 4 are in pain, e others feelin sore.. haiz.

23:01

-> satisfy

i'm a pig today haa.. eat so many while workin.. i ate burger, a box of long sui tang, another packet of long sui tang in popiah version and chocolate fer lunch. ate takoyaki, old chang kee and bubble tea fer dinner. and juz ate thai mango bought frm orchard too. tis is wat i dun like bout workin.. bcoz workin is so sian that i will haf e temptations to eat. to make it worst, e temptations of food are junkies. haa no wonder i'm oso caught by boss eatin e junkies hee.. she always sae it's nt good to eat those junkies n she caught mi eatin burger king ytd hee.

although i dun like to work in a place full of food temptations, neither do i like to work in a place that gt nth much to eat haa. coz it's a frustration to think of wat to eat everyday. i pick on food. i dun really like to eat noodles, soup stuffs, chicken rice and many others. so u can see, how junkies can tempt mi le ba hee.

haiz.. i'm juz hard to satisfy ba. there's juz contradiction within myself on e things i do, things i sae n things i think. i'm hard to understand n sometimes i dun understand myself too.. hmmm...

satisfaction...???

22:37

-> i cried

juz finished watchin 1 litre of tears. i cried. practically every episode i cried. e show touch my heart. e bravery she had fer facin her illness and the love she received frm her family and frenz are so heart warmin. she had a very supportive family and everyone care fer her. if given mi in e situation, i dun think i will be as cheerful as her to face that illness and live on.

i felt sad.

23:03

-> Zhen bdae celebration

zhen bdae celebration was a simple dinner wif e 4 of us. zhen herself, sally mummy, jia ping n i. we ate dinner at marina sq de changing appetite. e food portion there was huge and thank god mine wasn't haa. if nt i will waste food again?

we took quite a lot of pics and chatted tru out e whole dinner. laughin at sally, tokin bout e past n gossip but wat are e happenings of e other frens. i'm surprised to learn that shi hui is gettin rom soon haa. ah yes, our conversation started to haf e topic of weddin..! haa. haiz 20 years old tis year really makes mi sad coz i'm nt 'young' any more...

aft eatin, we walk ard chattin and decided to go back amk chat coz scare later no bus back haa. we went to amk mac to chat till 11pm plus then go hm coz sally workin today at 10am. zhen n i chatted alot updatin each other wif e happenins in our life and i juz miss e chattins wif them.


e food i ate and e drink i share wif sally mummy

e dessert all of share. MUDPIE!

e scenary pic i took when we went up e life at pan pacific hotel storey 37 hee

An informal shot of us

kk, a decent shot of us

Jia Ping and I

Mummy Sally and I

Sister Wei Zhen and I

the 3 of us

13:00

-> trainin

trainin today was quite usual fer mi.. duno y i am so quiet today.. because today only few turn up? safra is crowded wif vj climbers? e weather is so cold that my heart is cold too? i'm just too tired? i duno which is e reason haa.

was late coz i wanna slp more. i set my alarm at 9am bout i keepin snoozing till 11 my mum wake mi up haa. every 10mins i snooze e alarm so today morn my fon keep ringin haa.

did some physical b4 climb and i tell myself i muz start trainin seriously and nt slack around like e past haa. aft camp, i felt there are alot of things i need to change and i am changin myself in e process nw haa. i hope i will be a better person.!

beatrix gave mi 3 routes but i only do 2. fingers are pain, hands are achin frm tue physical plus today's. but i am quite happy wif my performance today. of e 2 routes i tried, i know i am able to finished it with more tries. but tis is also e part i am nt happy wif myself coz i haf been climbin fer long but i dun think i haf improve at all. if tis 3 routes were doe by ting yin or joyce, i'm sure they would finish it wif less tries or even e 1st attempt.

sometimes, i just feel so dishearted bout my improvements in climbin that i feel like givin up climbin.

00:17

-> comin sit camp

juz came back frm e briefings of e sit camp. i felt briefed this time as it is detailed haa. sounds fun to mi e games as they are innovative and some i nv heard or play b4. hope everything will turn out fine fer mi and i hope fer all e changes that i have found at my last camp will be changed fer e better. only then, i will have more confidence in goin back to ak camp.

16:54

-> Live Operation camp

the past 3 daes 2 nights i'm out fer camp. actually can sae is 4 daes 3 nights ba. wed went fer e camp briefin and e camp started on thu till sat. the campers are frm yusoff ishak sec 3 kids. nice students.

although e 1st night i'm being briefed of wat are the activities and what shld we do, but to tell e truth, i totally haf no idea at all and i am even more blur then ever. i wanted to ask questions, but e problem is, i dun even noe wat are e questions i wan to ask. my mirror(partner) was pm(platoon mentor) asmail i didn't talk to him much coz durin free time he will be tokin to tis pm wana. till e start of the camp then i know they are couple haa and i dun mind him talkin to her la.

couldn't slp well e 1st nite coz slpin on e wooden platform wif slpin bag. i dun like slpin on hard grounds coz my hipbone will feel pain. hee. but still nt bad la fer us pms to slp coz gt aircon and till e camp started then i know e toilets we are using are better then e campers. gosh no one would like dat toilet they are using man. haa no wonder my kids told mi no one dare to pee till bath haa.

camp was ok wif mi coz and I enjoy myself as much as them. Seein how haf they changed frm e 1st sight we meet till e end of e camp was a satisfaction fer mi as they haf changed fer e better. I shed tears fer them hearin e names of e best cadat being called out fer our class n felt appreciated that they knew we had made an impact to them.

16:43

-> i need to change

day 1, camp started. i am nervous standin by e side to wait fer e class being allocated to us. i stand till my legs are achin, i am a bit shakin as time ticks by and i still dun really haf e whole idea of how shld i do. i depend a lot a lot on my mirror. he is doin e commands(because this camp is sort of like a millitary camp fer e kids to feel how it's like in army and wif learning pts.)

camp started, i didn't talk much to e kids because i always had difficulty in presentin in front of others. e words i wanted to sae will always get stuck in my throat and i am jam there. this is one of e weakness i wan to change and i MUST.

tis camp, i really found out a lot of things that i should change. not only should i 'coach' them of how to be positive, even mi myself shld be too. there are times when i am negetive of the camp and want to give up but i drop e idea any how.

i mus be REALLY active coz i am really very quiet. nw i noe, no matter good or bad things, i MUST really raise it out, speak it out and nt keep it wif myself. i MUST be fierce too coz i am nt able to convince people to do things.

i myself must do things myself and not depend on my mirror to burden him. i MUST kick off the habit of askin him is it ok to tell the kids this and that when i wan to sae instrustions.

tis are some of the pts i found when i am doin tis camp and i MUST DO MY BEST to improve these b4 i do e next camp.

16:43

-> this pm fren

Tis camp, I knew some new frens had some contacts and tis is one of e pm fren msn mi..

Women are like police. They can have all the evidence in the world, but they still want a confession says:

hmm finally finish reading all ur blog posting, learn so much more abt u. lol well to tell the truth i was kinda attracted to u from the first moment i saw u till the night i left. Reading ur blog makes me realise 2 very important thing that i should know. firstly u wanna stay single and secondly u already have someone being very close to u. there are no failures only learning experience. =)

Women are like police. They can have all the evidence in the world, but they still want a confession says:

Jocelyn, its such a pity becos it had been quite awhile since i last feel so strongly for any one. Anyway i wish u all the best in whatever stuff u do. =) take care

I duno why he had those conclusion. And one thing is fer sure that those are nt true.. even mi myself oso duno wat I wan n wat I wan to do. So I can’t really comment much bout that ba. I’m wonderin, who is e person he is sayin bout I have someone being very close to mi. I really have no idea hee.

16:42

-> Plan can never catch up wif changes

my plannins fer dis week were totally a change.

ytd, by right i should be havin tuition wif sab at 0900 but i am lazy and we delayed it to 2000. but in e end, she was tired n we had it dis mornin at 0900. i was late fer trainin. nt only fer today's trainin but fer e rest of my holi tue trainins. i will be havin tuition wif her on tue instead durin dis holi of mine.

actually dun need to work today but went to help alicia work frm 1600 onwards. brought psp but nv tot e batt will die on mi aft 5mins of play. sian haa. hp oso no batt aft one call to starhub haa. (batt lasted mi frm sun till today) chargin fon n play game but sian till i go jump, leg raise, sit up, stone blah blah haa

changed alot of plans fer one changes. i will be goin campin tml fer adam khoo's 3 daes 2 nites fer $220. i tink it's better than work in e shop coz i can haf fun n gain a diff experince. so i push everything away frm wed to sat. sat aft camp still muz go shi hui de 21 bdae chalet. so sian dun wanna go coz i nv contact them anymore let alone sae close to anyone. bo bian muz go coz she ask mi to give her face. but glad dat she still rmb, treat mi as fren. it's juz me who is plain lazy to go contact anyone.

trainin was enjoyable to mi today duno y although do a lot of things that felt pain. mayb it's light wat ting yin sae ba seldom gt so many pp come fer trainin. n, the 3 of us are trainin together again haa.

01:04

-> Away

the past wkn, i away frm spore. i went to my cousin hse to stay coz sun was my great grandma death aniversary. my mum wanna go back n pray so all of us went back together.

e past wk was like a sin to mi till nw coz i have been eatin alot n nt exercisin yet. i skip trainin on thu n i will be skippin tml too coz i need to help cover e other person e shift. well i am a samaritan ma hee.

i was sick last tue till fri so i didn't go run since mon. haiz n i eat alot when i am at my cousin's hse coz the things are cheap ma haa. esp e dinner on sat nite. we eat ikan bakar again wif chilli prawn and bbq chicken wings. dat meal eat alot coz we buy alot. i eat till very full lol..

sun, i eat alot alot of mangos.. it's sweet n nice and my mum buy alots. she brought 12 lol.. guess how many i eat? almost half of it haa..

was feelin lazy n tired today that i sms sabrina askin her wan to postpone tuition to 8pm ma and she sae ok.. haa sleep in late again wif e coolin weather today.

15:57