-> sick

today wake up mood very nasty. dun noe y but till aft trainin then i noe why and confirm it.

i'm sick! that's why my mood isn't gd. addin on, i am very tired too. rite nw, i am coughin. it's gettin worst! ytd n today wake up the throat feelin sore. i nv think too much into e issue why my throat is feelin so sore.

wake up in e morn tot today is wed, need to go work very sian haa but realise it's trainin dat i'm wakin up fer.. a bit dun feel like goin but haf to go if nt e ig situation will be worst? went to bath n dress myself in e opp side of e tee lol haa.. take bus 166 to sp fer trainin but i am too tired in e bus so i sleep. when i wake up, i saw myself at vivo. but, i m really damn blur that i tot myself is at sp le so i faster alight without a 2nd thought... took train to sp instead.

my flu started comin to mi durin climb. aft climb, it started to get worst till nw wif e dry cough addin to it. tink tml will be worst ba. wanted to go run when i reach hm aft trainin but didn't coz tired, sick n lazy liao.

today coach nv come fer trainin so we set our own routes. i only completed 2 routes. one frm ting ting n one frm myself. didn't climb much today. i even slp there juz nw lol haa. joyce, zatd, zayd n zul went thailand fer service learnin e past 2 weeks. they came back last fri n bought us handmade wrist band. that's sweet of them =) but, it's too big fer mi haa.. they all bought a cute voodoo like hp access fer e yr 2s. ;)

ytd was a long and busy dae fer mi.. i started my dae wif tuition then i went to run aft eatin fried carrot cake. mum couldn't get tau huay fer mi so gt mi dat instead. (today she gt mi tau huay..) run aft eatin isn't a wise choice so i am affected in my timin fer e run. i aim to complete e whole park by 20min or less in e end, i exceed by 2min.

went home couldn't skip coz need to faster cool down to bath n meet stev they all to swim at jurong swimmin comp. i'm late.! coz b4 takin e train i went to depsit money in my acc fer e dinner at nite.

swimmin was great but i'm e only ger there so i followed them and do all e things they do lol haa. went wif stev, farhan, aslam. we started at e lazy river but halfway through, farhan stone fer a while n tell us his hp was dead. he actually 4gt his fon was still in his pocket n went in to e pool wif us. his fon was vibratin non stop dat time.

we played swimmin race wher we swim 2 rounds at e lazy river see who reach 1st, opp e current run. both dat games they let mi go 1st.. at e wave pool, we were all at e sides of e pool wher when e wave comes, they will jump up n hang at the sides of e wall. i only hang ard 1.5m coz couldn't go any further n they were at ard 1.6m. i couldn't jump n hang at 1.5m but only at 1.4m. it took mi a lot of tries then can hang lol coz whenever i jump, my shorts wan to drop haa.

i left 15min earlier than them coz i am goin hm to change fer dinner. they brought e clothes to swim. while bathin, i realise i 4gt to bring my comb lol.. so i juz use my fingers to 'comb'. reach hm i bath again coz hair nt nice without usin comb so i wet my hair again to make it nicer haa.

our dinner was at royal plaza hotel buffet. yes, i am late again and worst, i overshoot walkin to e hotel lol haa.. e dinner was ok but all of us agree that we eat less than e last time we eat at e sakura buffet. everyone eat till very full lor and again, i eat e least. i only eat fer 2 rounds and some desserts.

we took some pics aft eatin at e hotel n walk to starbucks to lepak but didn't in e end coz ting yin wanna catch her last bus. on e train hm, i feel quite unwell. i felt a bit unwell. felt hot and feel like vomitin. and felt very full lol but thrisy too that i keep drinkin water. i felt hot till i sleep wif e fan on blowin at mi at top speed in e aircon rm last nite.

23:10

-> wat can i sae?

my dae started as normal n it goes well smoothly fer mi.. tuition in e morn was ok although b4 tuition sab sms mi to delay it till 8pm. but sorry ger i can't coz i will be workin aft e tuition. so she gt no choice but to start tuition at 9am. i tot she will nt be obedient today coz she saes she is tired in e sms so she wans to delay tuition. but, it wasn't so bad la.

went to work but on e way at lornie road there was traffic jam. i slept on e way but when i wake up suddenly still saw myself trap in e jam haa. late but nvm coz i haf set myself half an hour late every fri due to tuition. so less $2.50 every fri lor. workin was quite smooth to mi too but there's one thing i wasn't happy bout.

e plastic protecter frm my new fon was peeled off n replaced by e screen protecter provided when i buy my fon. man.. a lot of small bubbles trap. so ugly. it wasn't mi who put it but my shop neighbour who works in e m1 shop. although dun need to pay but it was ugly lea.. findin a new screen protecter fer my fon nw..

met kevin aft work coz he sms mi wanna haf dinner together ma. i only saw e sms aft i finished eatin my ya kun haa. although e msg was sent to mi way b4 i but ya kun but dat time i was watchin my drama so i ignore it 1st till aft eatin then i rmb i gt a msg. still met him anw but we ended up eatin tau huay only. walkin to e shop frm dhoby was a familiar way coz i really haf been there alot of times liao. wif susu, climbers, family..

he took bus hm wif mi n walk me to e lift n took cab hm again. still sae he like my hse here coz gt a lot of cabs haa.

reached hm ah long msn mi.. sayin he typin resignation letter. i was surprised to hear that. i didn't noe wat happened till i checked my webmail.. i wasn't expected to see e mail michael sent today. coz on wed, he emailed mi sayin bout us trainin out fer e time being as wall isn't ready yet. but today, e email was bout suspendin our ig and cut us off frm every resource like payin fer our climbs, trainin wif coach n even e EQUIPMENTS!

all this happened bcoz he ask fer rc attendance frm mi n i juz send mi everything. he wasn't satisfied wif e attendance. i felt i was at fault too coz he wrote on e email sayin attendance nt gd n no excuse were given. some have excuses juz that i nv wrote down like ting yin chicken pox n joyce fallin sick. i felt guilty.

i really duno wat to do nw coz trainin have stopped n nt all pp noe bout e email. i really think that all of us shld haf a talk bout this but i duno how. all are busy wif their own things and i am oso duno how to tell e others bout this suspendin thing.

ah long n cyril haf send us an email sayin there are quitin due to their lack of commitment. i am fearin more and more pp will quit resultin e loss of pp in rc and we are nt able to stand as we do nt haf enu pp..

HAIZ..... I'M SO VEXED..!!!!

01:53

-> 91

tis random chat juz came randomly when i am chattin wif mum while coolin down to bath. we chatted bout relatives, cousins, nephews and nieces.

we counted and i roughly have 91 nieces and nephews frm both my dad n mum's side. my dad's side gt more coz he is e 9th child.

anw, i run juz nw n confirm that bishan park is 3.5km haa.. today i spent exactly 20 mins. improvin.! haa but i am lazy to skip today so only skipped 500 times.

goin to eat steamboat liao then ltr go out watch movie wif momo. guess tml will be tired fer mi coz i will be out late.

20:55

-> Slack

skipped trainin today coz still wanna slp haa. so sms steven givin excuse sayin my fingers pain. well, it's indeed pain. even if i go trainin i will blame on my fingers for nt climbin well ba hee.

slack at hm e whole dae doin nth but juz loadin shows so that dis wkn work can see haa. so borin.. i muz make sure i go run ltr even if i nv train today. at least i did some exercise hee.

16:53

-> tired

late fer trainin.. nvm coz everyone late too haa. again e 4 routes couldn't complete. fingers is one hinderance fer mi n i haf no strength at all damn... haiz really duno wat to sae.. been goin fer trainin every time but still can't do e routes. i haf a prob in lockin, then e my cremes are nt stable enough. i shall focus more on cremes so that my hand will nt let go due to loose grip.

today slack fer climbin coz all of us nv do e 10 laps climb.. we left aft beat left awhile to go eat then head hm.. today ended quite early fer mi..!

i am already feelin tired aft trainin but i still go fer a jog round bishan.. today, i notice something. actually i have been mistaken all e while while runnin. i used to think bishan park was 2.5km but then today then i noe the startin pt is at the other side of e park n nt wher i always start haa.. coz while runnin, i saw the 3km plus markins. nvm, the next time i will check it out how big it was actually. i assume it was 4km ba aft roundin up hee.

skipped 1000 times today 2x ytd de.. woohoo

20:41

-> Shit u

shit u shit u shit u shit u...!
shit e damn lizard..

I HATE IT..!

get out of my life and away frm mi...!

02:16

-> Chill

a few daes nv blog le coz nth interestin happened.. e past 3 daes i am workin n damn sian.. even though i watch dramas while workin, but watchin e whole dae can oso be tired. rite nw i am sourcin fer dramas online to watch durin work.

aft tuition in e morn juz nw, i went to jog at bishan park.. skipped 500 times aft joggin coz past 3 daes nv exercise. i muz make it a habit to exercise whenever i haf e time!!

meet char, fen, mama, apple n uncle juz nw to haf lunch n chill out too. had a nice time chattin coz one two weeks no see liao.. haa miss e laughs.. i like e feelin of chillin out lidat wif frenz coz it juz feels comfortable chattin although we are like juz sittin dwn n doin nth. nice feelin.

uncle mayb goin clubbin dis sat or next sat wif his frenz n he asked apple wan go ma.. they talked bout e clubbin things till i am interested to go see see haa...

22:35

-> V dae

my v dae was spent wif the climbers climbin n playin badminton.. haa fun, tired, pain n hungry.

skip breakfast n last nite only had fries n soup. haa.. climb n play till 5 plus then go eat. boulderin was bad fer mi but i am happy that i climb 6A route 10 laps. i move on frm grade 5 to 6A. tot i couldn't be able to do 10 laps of grade 6A but i did it..! yeah... ^_^

play badminton wif coach n i m like busy runnin e whole court haa. she sae i dun wan to control e shuttlecock so she control lor makin mi run here n there to get e balls. i didn't grumble bcoz i dun mind hee.. can exercise haa.

we also played line catchin wher we can only step on e line to run ard. haa fun n e guys were gd la.. give in to mi haa. nt only while playin n climbin too. coach made us hold onto e roof tiles(jugs) lock n kick e opp party down haa. 1st time fad do wif mi n he juz stay there to let mi kick. i was laughin n dun dare to kick him that i come down very fast. e others keep askin mi to kick his vital part haa. 2nd time was aslam. he oso juz hang there to let mi kick.

but i gt alot of aftermath... my legs felt sore.. i duno is it e blisters or my feet is achin or i injure my leg or all of e above. it jus felt sore. other than that, both my palms have blisters too frm climbin e 10 laps. i gt a blueblack while climbin. my knees are in pain n lastly, e fingers are e most painful part. I'M IN PAIN...! haa

thx jeremy fer takin care of mi alot while walkin to dhoby when crossin e roads haa. coz i am really a blur sotong hee.

today wasn't a gd dae fer mi ba. tired, legs feelin sore, fingers pain n had to squeeze in e damn pack mrt haa.

22:35

-> Holiday

jeremy will be goin on a holiday backpackin tour to europe on 5th mar. so envy of him haa can travel out of sing to experince something out of here. he will be travellin fer a month wif cloud.

i oso wanna go somewhere out to see see lea.. they are a lot of countries i wanna go.... T_T i wanna go korea, hong kong, taiwan, somewhere wif snow too hee.. haiz.. no money sia...

ytd i ask ting yin wanna go tour ma durin june. she sae ok but duno confirm ma coz it's too early to sae haa.

12:41

-> Bad

i noe tis is bad fer mi but i can't help it..

my appetite wasn't good tis few days that i haf skipped breakfasts, lunches n dinners.. or my portion of food haf decreased.. didn't finish my food.. n lastly, i haf been pickin on food.

ok, i ate some food juz nw.. at least better then nth haa coz it's like 5, 6 mouths of food.

waken up by ste at 7am coz meetin at 8am for breakfast at yishun. haa i ans his call already then went back to slp fer another 10min.. yes, i'm late. haa

climbin wasn't great fer mi today as i didn't complete any route. yes, i sux haa.. e only thing i am contented is that i did e 10 laps of climb on high wall n i tried grade 6A. i can do it! hee

we went out to eat then go back again to asia.. wat are we doin? we are playin badminton! haa felt satisfied coz i sweated n felt i haf exercised. quite a tirin day fer mi coz i am actively engage e whole dae wif climb, badminton, chattins wif my climbers n playin ard.

really felt tired n feel like slpin nw hee

00:21

-> Back frm Malaysia..

back frm malacca... felt tired n emo haa... everytime when i come back, i can't help but my tears will flow... although felt borin there coz of e amenities available, but i enjoy e time wif my 3 cousins.

my cousins are nice as they treat us wif warm hospitality despite we are like see each other one yr once. our bond wif each other are very close that we really play till crazy wif each.

tis cny i am emo. visited my dad's elder n 2nd sis. they are old in age wif quite poor health. i feel sad fer them but i can't do anything. i juz sat there and kept quiet coz they are old in age and we haf difficulty communicatin as they spoke in dialects and i am bad at that.

ok i am really a rat shit nw coz i am cryin (emoin) writin tis entry. i tot of my cousins, e past and my life.

life feels meaningless to mi coz i can't find a real commitment in my life.

nvm, these are e only pics i took..


e market at malaysia


my cousin took e pic b4 lunch. we were snackin hee.. see e purple shadow bhind. my sis sae look like a ghostly face


my cousin n i.. look like couple? hee

i only took pic wif tis cousin dis year

22:07

-> Malaysia

reach here ytd nite.. i stay at my cousins hse instead of grandma's. like here better than gramndma hse coz feel better here...

been here every year but feel unfamiliar.. duno why? mayb coz it's juz e startin? or mayb coz it's late liao..? today was better but e weather here was hot man.. haa very hot indeed like singapore better. whenever i'm here, i will feel bored coz of the amenities available. my entertainment here would be tv but no use coz i dun understand malay. i need subtitles or worst, some cantonese shows wif malay subtitles haa.

luckily i brought my lappy along to kill my boredom if nt i will juz eat and eat like e past i am here? haa i loaded shows on my lappy b4 i come so haf movies n dramas to watch hee. today, i watch e movies on my lappy. my cousin, kor kor huat pass mi e hardisk le.. but i haf yet to try it.. hee..

20:57

-> Avontuur De Republic

ytd took part in Avontuur De Republic adventure race. team up wif ting yin and we came in 1st..! haa.. (shhh... dun tell everyone our category(women's cat) only gt 2 teams.. hee)

there were 10 stations altogether n we almost gave up coz durin e halfway at start ting yin nt feelin well frm all e runnins.. she endure and continue, and felt better aft e skate station. appreciated dat she still continues n nv give up. given mi in her shoes, i oso wun endure on coz i dun wan to be my teamate down.

of all e stations, i like navigation e best as i am impressed by myself that i can able to find my way ard wif e map given haa.. i tot ting yin i will blog down i am impressed in myself fer navigatin ard hee...

bought new fon ytd, today use it liao.. duno how to use n i am bringin e manual everywher haa.. it's my bible nw! hee my fon model call lg viewty...

01:33

-> Ytd

ytd aft trainin on e way hm, i nearly meet an accident myself. while crossing e road, i nearly bump into e cab or should i sae e cab bump onto mi? i duno.. haa nowadays, i haf a habit of waitin fer e green light at the traffic fer e pedestration traffic light coz i know i am not careful while crossin e road.

ytd, as usual, i cross while e green man is lighted and on my mp3 again. when i cross e road i dun watch out fer cars. oops haa. well, e cab was cms away frm mi and i can feel e heat frm e car lol.. both of us stop suddenly and aft we stopped, i continue walkin like nth happen b4 haa..

10:33

-> My reply to Joyce's blog entry..

sis.. couldn't leave a comment to yor livejournal so i leave it here hee.. hope u will see it.! =)

it's ok bout e sat tingy.. i understand bout e situation. take care wor eap bout yor health.. u haf been busy wif camp nowadays n fallin sick.. see u ard durin trainins when u r better! =)

10:27