-> New year’s resolution

Today is e 1st dae of new year and I’m workin.. I know it’s a borin life fancy workin durin new year, Christmas blah blah. But no choice lea I’m so so broke. Haa nvm since stayin at hm will also be sian so y nt sian at work wher I can still sit in watch movies and at e same time earn some bucks haa. Occasionally so some assistant to customers while e rest of e time will be mine to do anything I like.

Boss really dote on mi ba. They knew I brought lappy to work, chat online, play games and watch movie. They nv sae anything but sometimes I really feel guilty bout it. Esp when I am leadin a bad example to the other workers. Nana and carol had left e shop liao so left I am e most experienced worker left. Have work fer more than 1year and a half guess will continue till poly yr 3 ba then later decide wat to do next.

This month, I haf tot of a lot of things. Maybe coz I gt a lot of time to think ba esp nw holi and durin work gt a lot of time to do borin stuffs. Last week, I wrote an article bout my feelins of friendship. I still felt so. I oso thought bout kinship which I think I have been very nasty towards my family? Esp this few weeks e words ‘lazy’ and ‘no’ had been my fav excuse fer rejectin, fer runnin away. I feel bad fer been nasty esp most of it to my mom. She had been very patient wif my nastiness n nv complain nor sae anything. I shall quote an instance wher it happened everytime.

I duno y recently I haf been like stopping myself frm eatin of is it that I wanted to be slim so much that my mind keeps sayin no to everything. Mom is nice as whenever I am at hm, there will be food to eat. Even if she nv cooks, she will buy takeaways fer mi. I always slp till late afternoon then wake up. Whenever I wake up, food will always be ready. Even if mom nv cooks she will ask mi wat I want and go down to ta bao fer mi.

I wish fer this new year, I will be nicer to my family, spend more time wif them and live a happier life. I juz haf no idea y I have been like emoin this few months. On e whole, I look cheerful but when I am alone, I am quite emo. Ex, ytd new yr eve, I turn down deqiang, momo to watch movie. I turn down to go wif my family a lot of times. I turn down Kevin to go countdown durin xmas eve. I turn down da’s sincerity to patch back as frens that we used to be. Yr 2007, I turn down lots and lots of things that is accumulatin to mi being emo.

I want to stop it this yr and I want to kick off all e bad habits of mine and hopefully e you I haf been waitin have come and change mi fer a better person. I know no one is perfect but I jus hope I could be a better person and things will go smoothly fer mi.

May all of our resolutions come true.!

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