-> Empty

Went to skin centre fer appointment today and i dun need to take med any more fer my pimple face. doc sae my face is better le but i dun tink is better till wher lea haa.

went hm aft appointment n receive a call frm michelle sayin she can't meet mi le. great coz i dun feel like goin so far to meet her lea haa. oops.

aft eatin lunch, i snack abit then went fer runnin since i have time. another reason fer runnin will be at nite will be my reunion dinner wif family so will haf a lot a lot of food as my mum started preparin frm morn till nite haa.

i run bishan park one round, then walk to fitness corner intendin to train my pullups. in e end, i nv do pullup but inclined pullup instead haa. i do 4 sets of 5 inclined pullups, 2 sets of one arm lock 10 secs, 2 sets of full lock 5 secs. arm feel very tired liao lol haa. went back hm, i skipped 5 sets of 100. i intend to skip till 1000 but because i skipped barefooted till gt a small blister on e toe affectin mi so i stop le. ltr i will do 2 sets of 100 sit ups to end my day as i have been doin everyday.

dinner at nite wasn't nice fer mi coz all e food is nt i like to eat very much de. tink i haf been pickin food nowadays coz e food variety i take is limiting. e whole take was loaded wif food but i ate like less than 1/10 of e food lea. there's fish, bak gu teh, prawns, stewed duck, abalone, roast pork, vege and shark fin soup. each of us haf a bowl of e shark fin soup n i didn't take a lot of rice. i didn't eat much coz all dun look appealin to mi lea. i didn't touch fish, duck, roast pork. bak gu teh i only take one meat, a few piece of abalone n finish my rice wif vege. e prawn came ltr when i am bored while watchin tv so peel n eat while watchin tv..

e whole dae, i feel so empty lea. feel like stuffin things inside mi but dun feel i'm filled inside. even aft eatin, i still feel empty.

menses haven come n i am still waitin fer it to come. i dun like like e feelin of waitin fer menses to come because i dun haf any 'warnings' when it came. e feelin sucks coz when i tot it come liao, it doesn't. but when i tot i am still safe, it came. muz be very careful in case it came n i feel so restricted. faster come faster go la den i wun haf tis uneasy feelin..

this feelin sux......

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