-> Empty

Went to skin centre fer appointment today and i dun need to take med any more fer my pimple face. doc sae my face is better le but i dun tink is better till wher lea haa.

went hm aft appointment n receive a call frm michelle sayin she can't meet mi le. great coz i dun feel like goin so far to meet her lea haa. oops.

aft eatin lunch, i snack abit then went fer runnin since i have time. another reason fer runnin will be at nite will be my reunion dinner wif family so will haf a lot a lot of food as my mum started preparin frm morn till nite haa.

i run bishan park one round, then walk to fitness corner intendin to train my pullups. in e end, i nv do pullup but inclined pullup instead haa. i do 4 sets of 5 inclined pullups, 2 sets of one arm lock 10 secs, 2 sets of full lock 5 secs. arm feel very tired liao lol haa. went back hm, i skipped 5 sets of 100. i intend to skip till 1000 but because i skipped barefooted till gt a small blister on e toe affectin mi so i stop le. ltr i will do 2 sets of 100 sit ups to end my day as i have been doin everyday.

dinner at nite wasn't nice fer mi coz all e food is nt i like to eat very much de. tink i haf been pickin food nowadays coz e food variety i take is limiting. e whole take was loaded wif food but i ate like less than 1/10 of e food lea. there's fish, bak gu teh, prawns, stewed duck, abalone, roast pork, vege and shark fin soup. each of us haf a bowl of e shark fin soup n i didn't take a lot of rice. i didn't eat much coz all dun look appealin to mi lea. i didn't touch fish, duck, roast pork. bak gu teh i only take one meat, a few piece of abalone n finish my rice wif vege. e prawn came ltr when i am bored while watchin tv so peel n eat while watchin tv..

e whole dae, i feel so empty lea. feel like stuffin things inside mi but dun feel i'm filled inside. even aft eatin, i still feel empty.

menses haven come n i am still waitin fer it to come. i dun like like e feelin of waitin fer menses to come because i dun haf any 'warnings' when it came. e feelin sucks coz when i tot it come liao, it doesn't. but when i tot i am still safe, it came. muz be very careful in case it came n i feel so restricted. faster come faster go la den i wun haf tis uneasy feelin..

this feelin sux......

23:42

-> Impressed

i am impressed by myself how fast i can adapt myself to present an unknown ppt frm an outside source. ron outsource e ppt fer today's problem and we are e 1st team to present. while presentatin, i jus quickly read through wat i need to present and able to present it like i had done research on it. juz a few mins lol haa..

14:17

-> The haunted house

watch the haunted hse ytd wif momo.. i am realy a rat shit watchin horror movies nowadays man.. coz i really dun dare to watch all the horror scenes wide eye. i cover here and there, and i really can't take glore scenes too. all the glore scenes i didn't watch and feel very disgusting lol.

i am shaken by e movie a lot of times n momo keep lookin at mi haa. he asked mi am i ok a not haa. he oso ask mi wan to take his hand ma as in hold on to his hand if i am scared haa. tis reminds mi the 1st time we watch horror movie and that time he hold on to my hand. tis makes mi think that how he have changed frm last time wher he still can get startled by horror movies till nw he can watch e whole movie calmly haa. i still rmb e 1st horror movie we watch is red candy.

usually e movies we watched are picked by mi.. he like nv pick one movie to watch b4 lea. sometimes really wonder e movies i watched he oso like to watch ma.. nw gt a few drama movies comin.. some i would like to watch. duno he will wan to watch ma?

ytd momo sae i look better in shorts. haa he ask mi next time dun wear so much 3/4 pants as he tinks nowadays dun haf much pp wearin 3/4 pants liao.. haa

10:48

-> Activiely frm fri morn till sat nite


25.01.08 Fri
0700 : wake up
0800 : bus to sch
0900 : reach sch, dl problem statement
0930 : went fer breakfast cum lunch
1030 : 2nd meetin starts
1130 : 2nd meetin ends. started to slack a bit and do some work fer e day's problem
1400 : 3rd meetin starts. present and slack away
1515 : sch ends and hang ard fer a while then head hm..
1700 : reach hm n e bus way hm was stuffy..
1800 : started tuition wif arun (p6 em3 indian boi)
1930 : finished tuition n headed hm. on e way went seng siong to buy ice cream n tom yam seaweed. suddenly craving fer it
2000 : bath, eat dinner while watchin tv
2200 : receive a call frm ting yin sayin gt vacant spaces to go cyclin liao still wanna join ma? haa i agreed n she sae give mi a call ltr to confirm again while she faster go bath..
2215 : ting yin called and say we are confirmed.. her dad will pick mi up ltr
2245 : her dad came n we went to top up e gas fer e car 1st b4 goin sch
2315 : finally reached sch n faster head off fer cyclin wif steven, farhan and arif
0030 : frm sch cycle till thomson spc gas station wher an hour plus ago ting yin n i went ard dere toppin up e gas fer her dad's car
0100 : continue cyclin to e 2nd stop at mcpershon area.. on e way pass by my hse lol
0215 : reach 2nd rest pt and legs aready started to feel sore esp e knees. butt damn pain la
0245 : started cyclin again n dis time to e 3rd rest pt was very far.. cycle to novena dere then turn to newton's area and cycle up bulit timah.. e whole stretch of bukit timah was damn far man..! cycle till i can't stand when stopped. while cyclin, i suddenly feel dat my stomache was bloated. dat was a sign of my mens comin but thank god it did nt..
0445 : finally reach 3rd rest pt.. couldn't stand when i stop lol.. on e way a bit feel like givin up but i persevered and glad dat i did nt give up. steven n e rest ate e energy bars given but i did not aft a bite coz really dun like to eat those haa
0515 : headed off again and this time back to sch liao.. although there r alot of up slopes throughout e trip, e last slope back to sch was e most strenous coz it's long and steep! quite a lot of pp walk up wif their bikes when i pass by but i didn't.! hee i ride through wor.
0600 : finally reached sch. ting yin and i were discussing whether wanna go hm bath ma then meet them ltr again fer e sentosa tingy. btw, i backpacked my volleyball through e whole trip of night cyclin lol i brought the ball 3 times wher e 1st time is to sch coz steven sae he will take frm mi durin 2nd break but didn't so i brought hm. 2nd time was to night cyclin. 3rd time was to sentosa.


26.01.08 Sat
0630 : ting yin n i finally agreed to go hm change 1st then ltr his dad drive us to vivo ltr on
0730 : reached hm. bath. had difficulty bendin my knees coz my knees are pain and e butt too hee. i didn't had any pain at thighs area but e rest did duno why
0815 : finished bathin drank a cup of cereal but gt cheated coz is my mum de 'lao ren mai pian(oatmeal cereal)' dun like to drink. feels weird. slp fer a while while waitin fer ting yin's dad to drive us dere
0837 : ting yin msg sayin she comin out of her hse and i went down to wait fer her
0920 : reached vivo n msg steven coz he challenge us if anyone reach aft 0930 will haf to treat the other. they haven reach yet so ting yin n i sat at vivo n slp haa
1000 : steven n farhan juz reached. we walk to harbour front food centre to meet them and eat.
1030 : zayd came and we chatted fer a while b4 leavin
1100 : ting yin, steven, farhan, zayd and i left to board e bus to sentosa and saw jeremy before bus left
1130 : reach sentosa and we walk to palawan, ride e tram to siloso instead.
1200 : settles at siloso but all of us were fatigue nt very active. had some games but nt so enthu.
1330 : started drizzlin so went to sapphire pavilion to avoid e drizzle. all of us slp there instead haa
1400 : zayd wake us up sayin there's sun can go out suntan liao. ting yin go and spray sun tan lotion on mi so no choice i gt to apply liao haa. so oily man.
1430 : fad, aslam and sam came to join us. ting yin, sam n i finally went down to e water aft draggin ard haa
1530 : karnita finally came. i swam across to e other side of e beach usin e volleyball as my float haa and i climb up e rocks halfway to the beach. an expereince indeed. jeremy helped mi on e way and i enjoyed climbin e rocks as it seems adventure to mi. there are quite a few big rocks there and we climb them up. all e rocks i climbed up needed help frm e guys and the funny thing is, all i can climb up but duno how to go down. needed a lot of help frm e guys haa. sittin on top of the rocks give mi a feelin dat i can't explain. so different. like e feelin alot.
1645 : ting yin left. i took out my clothes n dip in e water coz i wanna get a better tan. haa.
1545 : wash up. there's a long queue at e ladies toilet lol
1900 : went to harbour front food centre to haf dinner
2020 : took bus 166 hm. on e way hm, slp like pig haa. really tired. dey sae my back look like butterfly lol haa coz i gt 3 shades of colour tones.
2130 : reach hm and wash up prepare to slp
2200 : watch tv instead haa
2300 : finally went to slp


27.01.08 Sun
1500 : wake up suddenly and force myself to be awake if nt can't slp at nite haa. slack my whole dae away watchin a episode of tree of heaven, hog to my lappy, clean my cupboard, watch tv and eat haa.

00:04

-> Hoho

i did not dream of anyone last nite but last nite seem beautiful to mi bcoz there were stars last nite. the stars were bright and viewable. it look nice in e sky but without a someone by my side seems empty to mi.. for that instance, i felt empty and alone. and feel like askin someone out to pei mi. e 1st person i tot of is momo but i nv do anything in e end. i jus msg him "momo tonight gt a lot of stars lea" and his reply was "lol my hse here cannot see" haa

15:09

-> Dream

so weird... ytd dreamt of steven and today i dreamt of deqiang... actually startin of e dream deqiang is nt in e picture. i duno how deqiang came into e dream and i dreamt myself been dead.

ytd dreamt of steven, today deqiang.. tml will be who? haa think i really watch too much shows that my dreams are so comical and unrealistic haa.

14:45

-> The different things I wanna blog..

Gt some other things I wanna blog bout I just forget wat are those so I will just start wif wat I rmb ba frm sun…

Sun 20.01.08
Went climbing wif steven, heng yi and karnita.. saw beatrix while climbin n her comments was first time see you all here… she meant karnita n I coz we nv climb on suns… while, aft climbin on sun makes mi wanna climb more on sun.. one is to climb more, two is i haf more time to rest n enjoy myself. Aft dat went to meet deqiang at ps when steven dey all heard is a guy meetin mi, they are curious how he looks like and keep sayin I’m on a date haa.. duno fer wat reason, I denied it was a date.. in e past, yes I see it as a date coz he ask (date) mi out ma. But fer sun, I denied. Steven really care fer mi or is it just wat a casual fren will do when he ask mi to beware or be careful when wif deqiang when he learns that deqiang is in army. He added on sayin army guys are tough and be careful not to lose my virginality. For dat, is it consider a care frm him or a joke he is makin.? I’m nt sure.

Meetin wif deqiang was quite ok as I feel comfortable and easy. I am nt afraid to do stupid things and I am me when we are out. Our conversions will evolve ard army topics but at least I learnt something that I will not know frm books. As these experiences will nt come to mi so easily like wat e guys will haf when in army. Deqiang is still in his process of getting his bike license and he said too bad he dun haf his license yet if nt he will send mi home. I will be waitin! Haa I am afraid to take bikes once I imagine myself fallin out e bike wif cuts on my legs.. haa

Mon 21.01.08
Meet wif deqiang in e morn as he was bringin mi to eunos for I duno my way dere.. chatted on e bus ride again and yes, it’s army stuffs again and we gt digress to other things too la.. aft dat went back to amk hub to meet mum to buy shoes fer new year and went tuition aft dat.. my hse is becoming like a hotel to mi already coz I go out early in e morn and reach late. Nt only dat, I can one day went hm a lot of times jus to put my bag or stuffs and out again fer tuition. My hsu is like a stopover fer mi lol.. so busy haa e rest of my week will be hectic coz wed work 11am – 9pm then meetin pp aft dat. Thu sch then trainin will only reach hm at 11pm plus ba. Fri go sch, then tuition and nite cycling all e way till sat morn. Sat rock climbers will be sun bathin at sentosa and haf fun duno I still haf energy by then ma? Sun, I wanna climb! Yes I wan.

Tue 22.01.08
Went sch and trainin aft dat. Sch ended early at 3pm so I decided to go hm put my lappy 1st before trainin coz aft trainin I am goin to my aunt’s funeral. Luckily I went hm 1st coz my slipper suddenly snapped after I asked mei yee to give mi a ride hm haa.

Trainin was quite fulfillin fer mi as I completed 2 out of 3 routes by beatrix and I set a ‘circle’ route unintentionally wif some of e techniques included which is a good thing. The routes are all jugs as told by beatrix and it’s doable just that u need some techniques, tension and lockin strength to get through.

Took ting yin’s dad car to amk mrt station to take bus to lavender there fer e funeral and everyone’s remarks fer mi was long time no see u.. all were thinkin hard when is e last time they saw mi. haa I can sae is a few years wor. I have made myself disappear in front of those relatives fer 1 or 2 years le ba fer mum’s side and fer dad’s side? Haa it’s even longer. 3 or 4 years le ba. Dun wanna interate wif them lea coz I haf nth to sae to them and I dun feel any closeness between us. It’s my parents they are closed to nt mi and I will be there sittin keepin quiet. Saw a few cousins that used to talk together when I go their hse and they look handsome aft long time no see haa. We talked bout e convers only evolve ard studies, jobs and nth else. So is this jus e things relatives talk about when they meet.? Sometimes I am so tired of life lol.. nth is interestin in life?

Wed 23.01.08
Had a dream that feels sweet to me. Aft dat dream, I haf been thinkin bout him lea. I dreamt I am wif steven as a couple and we are very sweet loving. There’s this part where I go out wif deqiang or who I can’t rmb jus to make him angry as he made mi angry haa. Somemore, it was rainin and deqiang take an umbrella to shelter mi and put his hand ard mi. I saw steven was angry and I am feelin happy inside my heart that he cared. Another part was when in e bus I am still angry wif steven and even sae “yes I like u and so? Did u ever like mi b4?” in an angry tone. E rest of e rc pp were in e bus too and everyone was havin their own convers. Suddenly, steven speak up and sae I love u. I was shock to hear that but I pretend I didn’t hear it and ask him to repeat himself again. He didn’t but sae that “u last sat, 26.01.08 admit in front of everyone in rc that u like me and now u wan mi to admit also.” I said angrily “yes, I admit I did sae that in front of everyone but at least I dare to sae it out loud and let u noe. Nt like u, nv sae anything.” He shouted I love u suddenly that everyone in e bus kept quiet and and that moment, my heart melted and felt warmth. Since that dae, we are very sweet and loving climbing together.

Awaken frm dis dream lets mi know that I have actually started to like him? Have been thinkin bout him more today and thinkin of how it would be if we were together. But, IF I really like him do I have e courage to let him noe? I am scared of becoming like susu and I once I tell him I like IF I do. I have no confidence in fallin in love anymore. Haiz..

Today, I have been thinkin of momo, deqiang and steven. I have been scenarioing but no conclusion comes out. I enjoy being in e company of them as frens or as someone I wan him to be even close than a fren?

MY LIFE IS IN A HELL OF SHIT. (I’m emoin again oops haa)

00:00

-> Sad

saddness came to me so suddenly.........

01:14

-> Disgusted off

i'm disgusted off by e movie #body 19... man it's too glore fer mi haa a lot of blood scenes n they are showin the inside of the person's body. although i use my cardigan to so call filter the big screen, i can still feel disgusted by the movie haa. i'm like watchin e movie tru a filter screen so that i will nt see all e glore scenes exposed.

watched wif momo and i awed by him dat he could actually see all the scenes without a stir. movie started at 2205 and ended at bout 0000 lidat.. i gt no more bus hm and momo still gt his last bus. i took 269 inside so needed to walk a little to get hm but i ask momo to board his last bus and he was a bit reluntant. when he boarded e bus, he apologised sayin actually he wanted to stay to accompany mi but i ask him to board e bus and sae next time we shall watch a earlier time movie so that he can stay.

for that, i felt happy and being cared.. today's movie wif him was another experience diff frm e last movie we watched. he made mi felt like i'm being cared and i am happy.

although i watched horror movies like filterin the screens and all, but i understand the plot lol.. better than momo who watch e whole thing he still dun understand lol.. haa.

had breakfast cum lunch cum dinner at cwp sakae sushi. steven, ting yin, joyce and i had sakae teatime at 1530 and as usual, chatted n eat till we full.. had fun chattin and laughin ard and enjoyed that moment.. guess e only fun time i really had n enjoy myself is when i am wif corkscrewers... i'm organisin an outin at sentosa at 26 jan sat wif corkscrewers.. hope we will haf fun and i am lookin forward to dat dae..!

00:44

-> Sandbox

went sentosa today fer e event sandbox.. got wat i wanted.. a tan..! haa e sun was hot today but i still wanna go tanning again to get more tan on other places as today e racer back tee i'm wearin gt more cloth haa...

played captain's ball today but i can't rmb how many matches did we play. really very tired sia aft one game of 5mins... so hard to run in e sand lor.. somemore i still muz focus myself in catchin e balls been passed to mi becoz e ball will slip off frm my hand in e past. dun wanna let tis be a mistake todae. e game scores can only be done by gers so only wai fen n i can score will charlotte is e catcher and wai fen's fren, bernard is the defender and wei quan run around. as i feel tired runnin in e sand, i kept hangin ard e catcher to wait fer ball to come so that i can score pts. we scored 2pts in e 1st game n it's by mi wor hee.. we won e 1st game but e rest did not score any.. e rest of e game all were only closed to scorin pts..

susu was there too n dis time we talked... but juz feel dat we haf nth to chat abt but we played games together.

01:49

-> Seldom blog liao

will be bloggin less le ba coz i haven been online at nite fer e past 4 daes.. finally made myself resist e temptation to go online everyday at nite to load shows.. so i am able to slp a bit earlier than usual.

keep seein susu dis few daes.. nv even sae hi lea.. or in my heart he no longer stands a place haa.. tml goin sentosa takin part in captains ball team wif wei quan (ma), charlotte, wai fen n her fren (her fren sub wei yu). duno tml fingers n wrist will further injure ma coz it started to pain again. tml will tape my hand to play.. hope i will get dark tml..! wanna get a tan...

01:18

-> First dae of sch

ytd was 1st dae of sch n i really feel very sian.. haiz 1st dae of sch gt ut and seriously, i duno wat am i doin coz i nv really read e qn. it's so long to read bout wat e qn is bout n i am really lazy n tired to read. so, i only put wat i random search frm 6p n paste it inside. so can sae ytd e ut was a gone case.. todae there's ut again and yet i didn't do anything bout it too haa.. 15 more minutes to ut and i am bloggin nw haa nv revise anything yet lol..

15:46

-> Sad

today juz finish watchin e drama Green Forest, My Home.. it's quite a sad drama fer mi to watch coz i cry a lot of times haa.. worst till, i watch while workin in e shop so means i cried there! haa so paisei coz my eyes damn red n fer e rest of e dae, my eyes felt so sore n tired haa. i'm emo..

21:57

-> Well spent

for e whole of this week, i think today is my well spent dae? e start my dae goin fer tuition n tuition todae was smooth compare to ytd. as sabrina is nw in e afternoon session, so nw we haf tuition in e morn b4 her sch.. haiz wakin up at 0745 in e morn is a torture to mi! hee

i walk to her hse to bishan at salavtion army there.. then walk back hm again aft tuition haa treat it as a exercise ba since i long time nv exercise le and skip 3 trainins (last wkn walk was nt counted as exercise ba hee). aft i reach hm, i changed n went fer a jog in at bishan park as i feel since i am up le might as well go do some runnin as i still haven keep my runnin shoe since last wkn use haa.

i jogged e park 1 round as it's been long since i jog n dun wish to strain myself. while joggin, i sweated quite a lot n i'm happy coz my perception is, if i sweat means there is something comin out of my body and i able to shed off that something. also, while joggin, i suddenly feel like doin pullups to see if i am able to do ma but i can't do it aft i finished joggin.. sad

went hm n feel like skippin since i gt a new skippin rope frm sch so i skipped 200 times n i kept tellin my mum dat i didn't know skippin can also be so tired lol haa.

cuno y but whenever i am done wif exercise, i dun haf e appetite to eat anything. i will feel very full instead and nth feels tasty to mi. mum bought mi pack food i can't finish n ask her help mi finish it hee.

went trainin aft dat. but in e morn, actually i a bit dun feel like goin fer trainin coz a bit sian n think dat y nt go work n can earn some bucks hee. but i choose trainin instead since i skip 3 times le. i reached at 3pm lidat but i slack ard till 4pm then climb (time when beat came) haa. although e guys have volunteered to belay mi to climb but i declined coz feel sian to climb high wall. long time nv climb high wall le n skip 3 trainins duno can climb ma haa.

well, i tried 4 routes today n i onsite them woo so happy haa. i belay pp most of e time today n i am scared by them nt once but i duno how many time. karnita n jeremy suddenly lose grip n fall n startled mi! luckily i gt lock e breakin rope to prevent them frm touchin e floor haa. when they fall, i think i am scared more than them because i screamed louder than them haa. suddenly became so timid. sweated durin trainin too coz e moves fer e routes are far man. i am so short! can't and a lot of times i am like stretchin my hand fer e next tile up n try to pull myself up. haa wonder whether did my hand extend a bit aft all e stretchy moves.?

aft trainin we went to coffe shop to eat dinner and again i didn't eat anything. dun feel like eatin.. we stay there quite long chattin n i didn't e guys were so bad back in their younger daes haa.

did a lot of excersies today n i shall end my dae ltr doin 200 situps!

01:19

-> So emo

Omg! I am so emo today.. I actually cry during workin today. Was watchin Green Forest, My Home while workin. For some sad parts, my tears fall for that I think it is still reasonable. Afternoon 1540 I cried not because of e show I am watchin because it juz felt so emo suddenly. I wasn’t watchin e show as I pause it due to a customer browsin e shop. When she left, e fm (I played yes 933 fm in e shop) suddenly played e show frm Jay Chou 彩虹. For dat instance, I felt emotional while singin along wif e song. E thoughts that flash back in my mind was da.. e friendship we had. I really cry in e shop that my eyes went red.

歌曲: 彩虹

歌手: 周杰伦(Jay Chou)
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

23:24

-> New year’s resolution

Today is e 1st dae of new year and I’m workin.. I know it’s a borin life fancy workin durin new year, Christmas blah blah. But no choice lea I’m so so broke. Haa nvm since stayin at hm will also be sian so y nt sian at work wher I can still sit in watch movies and at e same time earn some bucks haa. Occasionally so some assistant to customers while e rest of e time will be mine to do anything I like.

Boss really dote on mi ba. They knew I brought lappy to work, chat online, play games and watch movie. They nv sae anything but sometimes I really feel guilty bout it. Esp when I am leadin a bad example to the other workers. Nana and carol had left e shop liao so left I am e most experienced worker left. Have work fer more than 1year and a half guess will continue till poly yr 3 ba then later decide wat to do next.

This month, I haf tot of a lot of things. Maybe coz I gt a lot of time to think ba esp nw holi and durin work gt a lot of time to do borin stuffs. Last week, I wrote an article bout my feelins of friendship. I still felt so. I oso thought bout kinship which I think I have been very nasty towards my family? Esp this few weeks e words ‘lazy’ and ‘no’ had been my fav excuse fer rejectin, fer runnin away. I feel bad fer been nasty esp most of it to my mom. She had been very patient wif my nastiness n nv complain nor sae anything. I shall quote an instance wher it happened everytime.

I duno y recently I haf been like stopping myself frm eatin of is it that I wanted to be slim so much that my mind keeps sayin no to everything. Mom is nice as whenever I am at hm, there will be food to eat. Even if she nv cooks, she will buy takeaways fer mi. I always slp till late afternoon then wake up. Whenever I wake up, food will always be ready. Even if mom nv cooks she will ask mi wat I want and go down to ta bao fer mi.

I wish fer this new year, I will be nicer to my family, spend more time wif them and live a happier life. I juz haf no idea y I have been like emoin this few months. On e whole, I look cheerful but when I am alone, I am quite emo. Ex, ytd new yr eve, I turn down deqiang, momo to watch movie. I turn down to go wif my family a lot of times. I turn down Kevin to go countdown durin xmas eve. I turn down da’s sincerity to patch back as frens that we used to be. Yr 2007, I turn down lots and lots of things that is accumulatin to mi being emo.

I want to stop it this yr and I want to kick off all e bad habits of mine and hopefully e you I haf been waitin have come and change mi fer a better person. I know no one is perfect but I jus hope I could be a better person and things will go smoothly fer mi.

May all of our resolutions come true.!

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