-> I’m emo in nature

I’m emo in nature

I dun think I am the e personality I carry myself when I am wif frenz… I think I am emo in nature coz I noticed that recently, I like to keep things to myself and rejected wateva help or things was offered….

When I am workin, I like the peaceful environment in e shop and dun wish to haf any customers to walk in so that I dun need to interact wif them… guess I really is an introvert person coz durin rc recently, I oso didn’t talk much and keep quiet… the only time I am noisy is when I feel comfortable wif dat company of frenz ba…

While workin, i haf a lot of free time to think of things.. I thought of a lot of things like I dun really haf good frenz as all my frenz were like together fer a reason… used to haf da as bestie but nw it’s over coz our opinions dun match n I feel that I haf nothing to talk to her and unwilling to share wif her how’s my life goin..

Fer zhen and sally, we once were besties too but I don’t know much bout them recently… all of us haf our things to keep us busy wif. Fer val and e others, they haf their circle of frenz n I can’t possibly keep bothering them. Sometimes I really feel I am lonely esp daes like my bdae wher I spent it at hm watchin dramas. Even if my family celebrate my bdae wif mi, I dun feel happy at all and in fact, I didn’t even grin or smile dat dae.

Today is Christmas eve, again I am alone workin and will be stayin at hm aft work to pass e dae. Sometimes feel so sick of life that I dun feel like stayin in dis world anymore as I feel nothing makes me happy. Although I do feel happy wif frenz but are they able to keep mi company fer life? Frenz come and go and I already had a lot of frenz dat come n go out of my life le like my ga, susu, da, sally, zhen, Gerald, Kelly, Shirley, jia ping, kel, zw blah blah. They once came into my life and brought mi fun, laughter, joy and company. But nw, they haf move out of my life and continue wif theirs. Leavin mi behind alone and struggle wif wat’s left but memories of wat we once shared.

Although nw I had fun wif corkscrewers, but I know all this will end again when I graduate frm rp as it will be hard fer us to meet up due to our schedules and we haf to move on wif life. There’s still val but I noe it will be hard fer us to meet up in near future wif the fyp comin up.. we will haf less k box sessions le ba. But one thing that I noe will keep us in contact is wher our bdaes are juz next to each other in daes and she is e only one who bother enough to give mi a bdae present. Although there were others who rmbed my bdae but she will be e one who will nv 4gt mine in the years to come ba..

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