-> The problem lies on..

Being single fer a few years liao.. During those year, i keep wondering y am i single.. Hee.. Deqiang and some other guys once sae too that i dun look dat ugly nor unwanted but y am i single.. I would reply them i duno lea..
But now, i think that i seem to find out the ans to y le.. Last week, almost everyday i meet up to momo.. I accompany him to study, watch movie together and eat.. He accompany mi hm too coz there isn't any bus home any more. Aft he accompany mi hm, he walk hm frm my hse dere which is like walkin one big round frm wher we left. Momo accompany mi hm n i kept wondering whether he is walkin mi hm as a gentleman or juz accompany mi hm coz he feel guilty fer keepin mi up late.
Durin e last meetin, i am really very wear out liao but still we watch movie that is on my lappy coz e show we wanna watch haf no more time slot le. We watch till 4pm wher he left my hse durin dat time. And dat time, i feel that e interaction between us is too couplelike le.. We beat and push each other like couples teasing each other and he care fer mi..? There's this once where we are watchin e movie at my hse downstair. There's a rat lingering ard us and hiding. I put my leg across the table to the chair early on coz there were "xiao qiang".. So when suddenly i saw e rat, i gt a shock n had a big reaction. Momo's reaction was fast too fer he quickly grab mi n calm mi down..
Fer this, i feel dat we are too "ai mei" le.. N fer dat, i dun dare to haf much contact wif him as in physical contact.. 过了这次，我想了想，原来我会一个人是因为我怕。我怕我不会付出，不懂得体贴，只要求别人为我而付出等等。。因为我是个不会关查四周和人的迷糊人所以我不会是一个好情人。。哈哈。还有，我也不敢去谈恋爱。不知道为什么，一想到和谁发展成男女朋友的话，我就会感到很害怕，开始钻牛角尖，斩时和那个人疏远一阵子。然后我就会觉得我们还是当朋友会比较好。

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